



10:18 AM
lol
ytd
after my big news i was super happy lol my dad dickson his girlfriend was there..
lol i been very happy my dad act blur than dickson say haiz.. and his girlfiend told me ppl suppose to be cry lik hell and i was happy lik fuck... lol... i sot derh ar... lol..
later night went over to dickson house for a celebration which i promise..
sebas didnt turn up cos need hong girl girl.. derrick didnt turn up too cos of work.. and the rest didnt reply.. don noe why.
so end up i and him drink till i tot i was durnk but end up was not druck after 1 henliken of 500ml and a full cup of hennesys.. lol plus got smoke la but i cant think y from ytd morning till night i didnt eat anything i suppose i was easily drunk but this.. lol...
than 11 plus end up at home. ppls say drink much and drunk will sleep good... so i plan sleep early and today is a new day for me a refresh day...
but sua is i ended up been smoking trying to make myself sleep after cant sleep till 3plus am(flash back memorise cant think other things cant sleep i hate it lo) lol..
but than 4plus 5 finally slept... which i don noe how i fall asleep than
today morning 10 plus i awake be4 my alarm rang at 11am...
awake get prepare.. my dad prepare breakfast for me but i cant take lik don have the feel of hunger.. lol... end up didnt eat but the pills for my sick...
although ytd i tot of wat for go sch? wat for go work? wat for go take bike?
but for my life my parent's sake i have to carry on and force myself through... lol...
so i reach at 7-11 at 12pm sharp for my work and end at 9pm for my work...
finally pull through i tot i cant cos of illness.
than went over to dickson house where his girlfriend with him...(his girlfriend staying at his house maybe forever cos her mother throw her out so bo bian she now live in her bf house which is dickson.. lol)
we slack than watch tv till 1 plus... for channl 8 show...
now just reach home... and wrote all this...
lol my ever first record on drink beer and hard liquior
without having any food and carry on eating pills with our food from ytd till today...
lol....
ppls say drienk cant take pill... but ytd nite i just did but nothing happen... maybe is about everyone's body different can take different things... lol....
don noe y i happen to be cant delete this msg from her which is " Night dear <3" and there i go for reply of "Nites! Muack!"
lol...
don noe y... hearts pain somehow maybe im stuck lol!!!!! cant cry out loud... feels like my heart on my throat where by i cant throw out feeling fucking funny don noe how to explain....
ytd after so much "FUN" i finally ask her this." is that wat u really wan?" she reply "meaning?"
and therefore i reply "break?" and there goes she said "yes"
and so i told her by i wont bother u anymore... weee....
lol i like been repeated the same think over and over again....
my dad told me.. once u can take , once u can let go...
i don noe how to type in chinese but something lik tat la...
lol anyway now is 24/05/09 already so is... lol i don noe how to say u all figure out the change between today and ytd lo...
lol...
think thats all i gonna say... don noe later still can sleep a not...
how i hope this was a bad dream but is fact and is also the fact i have to go for major exam.. bike test and work... cant change the fact although im try to run away but it seems lik my body is doing all the work and trying to push my think and everything to move on....
feeling quite meaningless.. but funny still
i still carry on with everything without running away when i wanted to run...
lol i don noe wat im writing but readers who understands think u know how it feels....
lol.... lik i said! HUAT LA!!!!!! ~~ WONDERFUL LIFE!!! ("\(~,~)/")
anyway... is that the case... aa.... a... a... a... i wondering later could i fall asleep easiler?? a.... a....a....a .... eating pills now for illness.... a...a...a.... than go smoke my last stick... aa...a.....a..... hmm than try to sleep ! =]
WEEEEEE!!!!! jyjy gogogogo i can do it! and you can too!!! jy for exam !!!! CHIONG ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR ~,~
lol =]
happy always smile even though how bad it was but still smile! =] lik me =]!!! lol!!!