



4:25 AM
my gf told me this i with dickson all the time... been the 5 months can hold hands and 3 months cant meet, i been feeling fucking down try msg lots and either nvr reply at all or just reply every one word.. dickson told me that u had someone in mind and no interested.. but i don give up till once she scold me.. and i let him see... its says.. " cant u let me have some peace on my studys?" everytime i msg she say she was busy than i stop msg.. everytime im free on saturday but she had tuition than i i don go bother her... "Sorry about tat . 1St my phone lately got problem . And i jus wanna see how long i'd last without replying she told me this.... phone got problem... and this would reply so fast and as normal? y not got problem? the best part was just "i jus wanna see how long i'd last without replying " wow so suddenly and at the best period on the 3 months okie...im fine... i did ask shao wei tat anything happen to u a not he say everythings is normal.. than i was like maybe okie.... the worst part i hate the most but be4 telling u i still cant forget the days i break with u and i nvr break when u tot of break your mum told me this stop hurting u... i was like wth.... fine maybe this time i realli hurt u in i don noe how... but this " Mum also keep tellin me if your not interested don lead you on all this shit . " wow i cant believe your mum realli tell u this... cos when i ever ask shao wei wat happen to u i ask asked your mum... but onli shao wei reply but your mum didnt even reply... i cant believe this... nvm th past month i've been so alone with only gwen be my confidant and all girlfriends . Labels: ever big news in my life wondering how to let it go..
" Sorry let's break up . You promised you wouldn't ask why . sorry "
i reply
" why? we promise tat break without a good reason."
she reply
" You often told me . Don carry on if i dowan to . your blog post . sorry hhaii "
i reply
" my blog?. my blog is huatla.bs.com. You wanted this and u finally ask? Okie , Anyway is it u have other in mind? "
she reply
" No jus . th longer it is th more it hurts . Jus to say . After much i've been think about it lo . Yea mayb your right about me lo . Than i thought of breakin but couldn't let go . Than i think very long about wad i want , i really donoe la but th past month i've been so alone with only gwen be my confidant and all girlfriends . Mum also keep tellin me if your not interested don lead you on all this shit . So why not . Its better for you and me . I'm so used to being alone anyway . Sorry ba."
i reply
" is the guy who take bike? Or. If u lik telling me. den say ba. K? I just woke up and saw this was happy about the name but. was blank. Anyway. Think i will be still okie. Hmmmmm"
she reply
" No th guy biker not close to me at all . I haven seen him for 3 months "
i reply
" oh i see. " And why are u so alone?" anyway! i noe u need alot of courage. To type tat i think. Ya. maybe u are right.....
No idea. Why don reply me. My msg. U told me u were busy of study. Gwen with u jia min with you. WE both hurt. Of nvr meet. Im fine. Don say about your friends. Is not good u know. lol. The one msg tats nvr reply. Cos? busy of study. Anyway. Hmmmm jacket. And the rings u keep ba.
Think this the way for me to say thanks. :)"
she reply
"Sorry about tat . 1St my phone lately got problem . And i jus wanna see how long i'd last without replying . Just hope it doesn't hust so bad for you . I donoe i just reject all th comforts from friends , feel so alone just so , confused
Sorry i know you've been an awesome and understanding boyf . I know its my lost but i don want things to becomw worse . Both of us having major exams this yr . I wish you th best. We could stil talk as friends , but its jus the wrong time for relation. Thanks for everything . "
i reply
" Its not your lost. But mine. U lost nothing at all. Cos u don believe in forever stuff. Or marriage stuff.. But for me i lost, Someone precious to me when i don eveb noe how to treasure. Cos of stupid exam. I fear of the end of relationship so i try to be positive all the time hope exam would finish faster. But it seems tat the end is faster. I try not to meet u cos i on wan to be inference to your exam. But it result to this. So 1 time i cant take and meet you. But it seems lik jia and gwen is the best for u and they can help u in exam. So im not angry at all or should i say. No rite to be angry. U study. i don bother u u out with friends i don bother u. but not end up u been alone cos i think i don bother u this period the best. Result to this sorry. Thias is wat i don wan to say out most but i did. Sorry. I hope theres no misunderstanding. My lost ot of forever. I noe this was coming at the begining when we last met. But i ignore cos i don think it woud be so soon. Thanks for letting me noe. Theres nothing as forever. Thanks! All the best for your exam."
she reply
" sorry . thanks for everything "
late afternoon send this to her..
"don worry be happy y make life so miserable? :)"
she reply
" Cuz life was meant ti be miserable "
i reply
" lol. Dot i now at bugis the temple :) lol "
she reply
" why o.o "
i reply
" cos i this week since monday till now keep havin bad things to me the test. the school the teacher den today this lol. Anyway. i just wanna pray u and my family safe and exam pass. Plus health lo. Hmmm anyway i with my dad. My dad also got prob den today free can together pray lo. "
she reply
" oh ok take care "
After all this
if not study,,,,'
ever first time msg more than 10 words is i told her i go register for bike...
and afterwards.. is either nvr reply or one word....
i don noe... y i keep on writing and saying this... anyway is all over
today 22/05/2009 9.30am
one more week till our 9 month...
she not gonna read this cos i just know ba....
i been change blog link... lol
im not blaming anyone all this i just blame myself y lik this...
myself.... wat the hack i did wrong or is there any misunderstanding??
ytd i got a heavy flu and this week really bad luck for me and now this
lik i said huat la!!!!! wonderful life... i don noe wat im gonna do... to save or to torture....
or just regret...
lol one very funny think is i didnt realise this morning till now i wearing your heart boxers lol....
funny wor...
anyway
the songs ever with me from feb 14 onwards till now....
How did i fall in love with you by back street boys
Sometimes by britney spears
Tonight by FM Static
Forgive me by unknown.
Just one last dance
Just wanna let you know
Love story by Taylor swift
Last kiss by Mariah Carey
All or nothing by O-town
Till the end
Are you the one by Timo Tolkki
Swear it again by Westlife
I don wanna miss a thing by Aerosmith
I will be by Avirl Lavigne
Check yes julet by We the kings
I'll be by Edwin Mccain
Tongue tied by Faberdrive
Fixing a broken heart by Indecent Obsession
Home by Michael Buble
Only reminds me of you by MYMP
Nobody by Wonderful Girls
Fall by Ina
Maybe by Secondhand Serenade
She's Gone by Steel heart
Cant stop the rain by Cascada
Castle in the sky by Dj Satomi
Dont day you love me by M2M
The day you went away by M2M
Yesterday by Leona Lewis
The last Song ever by Secondhand Serenade
I Dont wanna know by Mario Winans Ft. P. Diddy
Fly away by Corrinne May