



7:45 AM
18/10/2009
ever felt that your life is near the end?
choose either one path u lose the other...
is just a yes or no to that person.
but a choice i need courage to choose.
the question is "Do u wanna go? " *with the important person u love*
"yes?"
or
"no?"
if no i can go sch...
which trying to pass..
if i fail i wont be able to study anymore and striaght to NS/
but i will lose someone i love who i understand the person much.
which the person didnt know any fuck about me or my situiation is..
all about yourself. and nothing about myself.
i told the person "Yes. don bother to wake me up i meet u at there 12.45 don be late"
the person replied this which u wouldnt expected its say "Yah.. Right.. Ok.. wdv eu say."
So i replied "I wan u to sleep enough onli. IF you still wan wake me up den come wake me up if u think u sleep enough"
the person unexpected-ly replied this " .. Okay. wdv eu say ."
wow..
finally i repied this " you comfirm this is your mood? Its seems i come or don come don make u any happier. been saying i don understands u let me tell you, u wan me to follow where ever u go. I know. And i trying my best. Its seems u don wan me already. Someone is better den me. Den im realli sorry to hold u so tight. Ur wings are hard enough to fly. Go ahead. I don go anywhere le. Not sch not chalet. just wanna say thanks to u that let me know. How it feels to be love. Take care sweet dreams. Think u don bother to read. also. i lazy to tell u all things. Good bye. "
my situation now. is.. i got a warniing letter from sch says im at 49% attendence when im suppose to be at 95% and above..
i went sch but cos of one stupid hair cut i cant go sch.
plus now the chalet is 3days. and was monday to wednesday... which is tmr...
but i last week cos of the stupid dm on thursday, i go ended up kick home.
friday... wanted to go sch but heavily sick cos of thr word "break"
now i decided not to go anyway. not sch not home not chalet.
im just too coward to face the fact.
don ever think of others even if its cos your life..
i learnt a lesson.
no one will pity u.
onli humans are selfish.
think of yourself only and u alone.. onli. no one else.
if not u would be suffering yourself and no one knows.
believe me.. there's not such things as share problem even to "any human"
they will slowly killing your heart off by the words of trust.
when u didnt even know.
till u find out is too late..
show your enemy your kindness means killing yourself.
cant blame anyone but yourself.
is u who ask for it. no one else.
SO PLS THINK OF YOURSELF ONLI. DON BOTHER TO WAIT FOR PPL TO UNDERSTANDS U. EVEN GOD KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT U.
*DON EVER BE LIKE ME IS USELESS, FOOLISH, STUPID.
WHICH I CANT CHANGE AT ALLLLLLL*