Huat La~~ Wonderful Life! ("\(~.~)/")

2009-12-15T11:22:00.000-08:00

THE PAST HAS ALL LONG GONE EVEN I CAAN TAKE BACK COS OF DELETING HOW FOLLISH OF MY PAST LIFE.....

AND FOR NOW I WANNA RUN AWAY FOR GOOD WHERE DERRICK AND DICKSON WAKE ME UP FROM MY SLEEP I THINK BUT I WILL BE STILL HERE...

IM QUITE NOT STABLE YET SO I NOT SO FAST REBORN YET!!

BUT IM A;READY PUT MY NEST THERE SO IF U WAN GO CHECK IT OUT.

BTW HAPPY CHRISTMAS! =]

2009-10-28T02:39:00.000-07:00

For that this stupid report theres still a fine of $400 and 6 caning for damage sch property.

wth see this small hole onli...

15/10/2009 Thursday
Morning went to school. D.M. is taking care of our class. Therefore my hair is long, he had a chat with me because of my hair. He wanted me to give a dead line. So I give a dead line on 19/10/2009 which is on Monday next week but he don’t agree on it. And the D.M. wanted me to get a hair cut done on that day. And was said to wait for me till I get my hair cut done. I denied and told him I won’t be back so don’t need to wait for me. Thanks.
So I went out of the class and went to the other courses to help out on their duty. Because that day was the school open house. And waited till the afternoon lesson whereby the class was taken by the other teacher. The teacher was Mr chong. So I went back to the class around 12am and asked to mark the attendance. But Mr Chong don’t wanted to, because my hair cut wasn’t done yet. And was asked me to leave the class. So I leave the class and stand outside the classroom. I got very fed up and thought the wall opposite the classroom was solid wall. So I kicked it. And before I knew the wall was a fake wall, the wall have a small hole I kick. I got scared and hurried home.
Till 22/10/2009 which is on Thursday, I decided to went to school and face my consequences. And I did. Having a chat with D.M. and Course Manger and my dad. And I accept my mistake of my hair and the wall I kicked.
When the chat was ended I rush to a salon and get a hair cut done and returned to school which needed to check by D.M. as agree to the condition to stay in school.
Im sorry for the things I cause and I will change my attitude. As agree I will come to school everyday and and fulfill my course.

2009-10-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

18/10/2009
ever felt that your life is near the end?
choose either one path u lose the other...
is just a yes or no to that person.
but a choice i need courage to choose.
the question is "Do u wanna go? " *with the important person u love*
"yes?"
or
"no?"
if no i can go sch...
which trying to pass..
if i fail i wont be able to study anymore and striaght to NS/
but i will lose someone i love who i understand the person much.
which the person didnt know any fuck about me or my situiation is..
all about yourself. and nothing about myself.

i told the person "Yes. don bother to wake me up i meet u at there 12.45 don be late"

the person replied this which u wouldnt expected its say "Yah.. Right.. Ok.. wdv eu say."

So i replied "I wan u to sleep enough onli. IF you still wan wake me up den come wake me up if u think u sleep enough"

the person unexpected-ly replied this " .. Okay. wdv eu say ."

wow..
finally i repied this " you comfirm this is your mood? Its seems i come or don come don make u any happier. been saying i don understands u let me tell you, u wan me to follow where ever u go. I know. And i trying my best. Its seems u don wan me already. Someone is better den me. Den im realli sorry to hold u so tight. Ur wings are hard enough to fly. Go ahead. I don go anywhere le. Not sch not chalet. just wanna say thanks to u that let me know. How it feels to be love. Take care sweet dreams. Think u don bother to read. also. i lazy to tell u all things. Good bye. "

my situation now. is.. i got a warniing letter from sch says im at 49% attendence when im suppose to be at 95% and above..

i went sch but cos of one stupid hair cut i cant go sch.
plus now the chalet is 3days. and was monday to wednesday... which is tmr...
but i last week cos of the stupid dm on thursday, i go ended up kick home.
friday... wanted to go sch but heavily sick cos of thr word "break"

now i decided not to go anyway. not sch not home not chalet.
im just too coward to face the fact.
don ever think of others even if its cos your life..

i learnt a lesson.
no one will pity u.
onli humans are selfish.
think of yourself only and u alone.. onli. no one else.
if not u would be suffering yourself and no one knows.
believe me.. there's not such things as share problem even to "any human"
they will slowly killing your heart off by the words of trust.
when u didnt even know.
till u find out is too late..
show your enemy your kindness means killing yourself.
cant blame anyone but yourself.
is u who ask for it. no one else.
SO PLS THINK OF YOURSELF ONLI. DON BOTHER TO WAIT FOR PPL TO UNDERSTANDS U. EVEN GOD KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT U.

*DON EVER BE LIKE ME IS USELESS, FOOLISH, STUPID.
WHICH I CANT CHANGE AT ALLLLLLL*

2009-10-16T21:22:00.000-07:00

always got to mis lead ppl...
wats wrong with the happy reaction.
now 12.30 she offline.. was at home with dad.. but not anymore..
now alone at home...

i told her think watever she like
she wont believe me...
anyway... y try to prove?
don noe...
i haven even finish my lunch wor...
wat ever ask me stay at house.
than now i at house got happy she wanna come over,
she tot i shock and ask me my house got who.
wat the hell.
i believe her that she go friend house. than go church..
wat ever i don wan think negatively...
haha cos i trust her wor...
all thanks to her i can stay at home waiting for recover.
lol or maybe force me at home lol xD

thanks you ddear! i realli don like staying at home and rest...
i wanna be with u...
honestly speaking..
do u know y im shock?
cos after i finish my lunch, i gonna eat my pills to cure my illness..
will make me very tired than i scare when i suddenly fall asleep cos of med-son/ pill
than no one open door for u than u will be late to meet your friends/// how i wish i can be with u together but i scare my illness pass to u also... haiz....

anyway enjoy your days! bibi will be there for u once cured!

2009-10-14T23:28:00.000-07:00

15/10/2009

Of all things. todays started a great day. Go school as per normal. but than. cos of my hair been kick out of class.. when is just met the teacher.. teacher always wan a dead line. but this time is different..

forget it i had enough of some school classmate and some teacher.
all i can say is sorry to someone i promise.. u ARE right afterall promise are meant to be break..
i gave up everything no more sch.
and dear think u would be very happy le i can fetch you after school like normal le hor?

i wan a teabreak today.
teabreak!!! i had enough of this life
if ever today dear i cant meet u im sorry i need to be alone.
think all u can i think all the negative stuff ba...
i'll be at home if u think im fooling around. sorry i realli wanna be alone.

Im very tired of this.
No more no more...
even i told u don worry be happy. =]
msg u like there's nothing wrong or nothing happen.. and than if today nvr meet u, u think funny.
im realli sorry this is the most i can say. for u to understands or to known.
sorry dear and sorry to someone very important.
i take back wat i said about wonderful life. when i was hidding.. lol xD
Die is a best way to every situtation but i now i still cant
cos there's something i need to live on.

the best and all i can say

2009-10-13T04:58:00.000-07:00

today was my happiest day of this week i think...
finally can be together for such a long time...
wow!!!

i been wanting to say this...
Everytime i hug you,
very comfortable
very peaceful
very wonderful
can fall asleep without knowing it
is like i wanna stay this forever without leaving..

i always very hate something.. about everytime i away from you.
eg. when i need to go home.. everytime we been seperated.
and i soon after i got this fear about your house there the lift.

Your lift is where we been seperated
i realli don like it.. like is been forcing us to part away..
the feeling like i rather die than leaving.. but i keep telling myself that there's still tmr so i hope i everyday can meet u.
everytime that feeling comes i cant stop my tears.
but i think u didnt notice..
cos my hair covered it. lol.. xD

lik wat u said 6 more years.. we can be together forever.. such a long way but i wont give up..
this is ever the very important thing i wanna say but i don know how to explain.
is that u may feel im very stupid. is i could just giving up my life for someone.

i already got once of giving up my life but god don me to die easily...
thats when i know my life is hard...
but i realli hope we can be together forever.
even though ppl don believe it.
hope u can love me like i love u.

2009-10-12T02:10:00.000-07:00

12/10/2009

I got something that i think you should know.
From today onwards i gonna cherish my precious time with you.
Hope u cherish too..
Cos i gonna miss u much from today onwards.
Cos my school time has change to 8am to 5pm everyday except tuesday.
I hope you can bear with me this 6 weeks.
My attendence is already the lowest le.
That means i cant pon le... =(
But i still wanna be together with you on the chalet.
I think i cant fetch you everyday like i always wanted.
But i will come your house after my sch finish and go home change.
This is the best i could do sorry dear.... >.< T_T
Im sorry i cant be there for u le due to the stupid sch.
But when sch finish i will be there for u again thats is all i can do.
So i very cherish the days i spend with u till now....
Dear i don noe why am i think like this but can u realli bear with me onli for this 6 weeks?
say or read like very short but in reality is quite long... T_T
Im stuck with this.
Dear i hope u red this, you don sad k?
I nvr give up on you....
But im realli scare u give up on me although you promise me already but this 6 weeks cant go together like we used to be...

I was writing on my phone wanting to send you but i don know should i send a not... sorry dear...
so i transfer it here.. i very scare u sad and left me..... *_*

im sorry i cant change the fact i cant pon sch le... sorry....
This feeling is like dying, which i should not let u know.
Cos i promise i'll be quiet. T_T
Sorry for not telling u cos i love u too much le...

Think that u don like to hear that im worry about you im sorry...
During holiday i wont worry much cos i anytime can be there to protect u but now is different...
Sorry but from now on i cant stop worry about u le... sorrryyy!!!!
Worry u kana bully... *_*

Dear all i can do is to pray that hoping u are safe...
Sorry i cant stop worry about u.
Cos the recent past u had.
Im very sorry to keep telling you that im worry about it when u don like it.
SORRY>>>...I don noe why.
Im cant stop telling this so im sorry DEAR...
4pm just finish sch i was very happy cos i can rush home change and go see u but god bad sia... it rain heavily.
But i still don care and just run through the rain cos i miss u lot...
Iwonder where you are right now is it rainning heavily?
Hope you are Fine...
4.29pm bus reach..
haha whole body very wet.. lol xD
Just hoping u are fine.
Cos u suddenly wan back the knife which i got worry.
Dear did anything happen? I wonder.
Im very sorry to said so much to you but i love u.
So the same i didnt send u this msg... but to transfer it here..

Just realli hope u are fine and safe.
DEAR I MIS YOU LOT LOT LOT!!!!!! =\

dickson.....

2009-09-27T05:39:00.001-07:00

left $500 when will finish???

too late to be know

2009-09-19T09:40:00.000-07:00

`-PERFECT-LY IMPERFECT™ ~~* I Cry In A Corner In Th Dark. Having a Broken Heart. Hoping Life Could Just ReStart .. iLoveYou 4 Eva says:
i wun leave eu..
as long as im happy , i wun leave eu.
if im hurt TOOO BADLY,
i duno wad will happen
baby , wad if.. WAD IF i really leave eu..? Would Eu .. Just Let Me Go ? Like EveryOne Else..?
Im just a Boy says:
oh...
ya... i wont disturb u
`-PERFECT-LY IMPERFECT™ ~~* I Cry In A Corner In Th Dark. Having a Broken Heart. Hoping Life Could Just ReStart .. iLoveYou 4 Eva says:
...
Im just a Boy says:
thats a form of respect
`-PERFECT-LY IMPERFECT™ ~~* I Cry In A Corner In Th Dark. Having a Broken Heart. Hoping Life Could Just ReStart .. iLoveYou 4 Eva says:
not to me..
to me..
it shows dat eu dun care.
dats 1 reason i dun go back to those people.
Feels like..Thy Dunwan Eu To Stay With Em .
Dun Wan To Hold On To Em..
Thrs When She'll Lose All The Feeling..
Dats The Way It Work 4 Me La.

Its realli seem lik i don noe girls.. is tooo late for me to know this....
but im gald to be with her

my past on this video wa

2009-09-11T08:29:00.000-07:00

my past on this third video watch first and second are link to the last video

SOMETHING IMPORTANT AND PLEASE HELP ME SPREAD!!!!!!

2009-09-07T11:30:00.000-07:00

The "Happiness" I want to spread about

Im sorry.

I didn't understand anything about the person,
And make the person suffer.
I couldn't teach the person what true happiness was.

Hey, if the person still outside there somewhere, could you tell the person something?

I had a very painful experience past.
Even now,
It makes my heart hurt.
Even if i lose my important thing,
The bitterness of pains still remains.

But,
I still looking for the person.
Someone who love me the way I am.
Someone who's my " One and only "
And i found the person.

But,
It's the beginning of something more painful.
Being beside the person is painful because I can't do anything.
Looking at the person who is pain, is painful.
That's why I disappeared from that person.
I disappeared because I love the person.

Even so,
It's much more painful not to be able to see that person.

I left because I love...
You leave because you love???

That is that person's happiness.
What is happiness???
Happiness that is...

Happiness is when you be together with the person you love.
You may face pain by being together,
But,
It's more painful to be without the person you love.
" I want to make you happy "
" I want to be with you "
" There's only be one you that can't be replaced "

Is this your happiness?
My happiness is here.
My happiness can only be found in that person.
Even if it's painful and make your heart ache?
Even so, I want the him/her/name.

I see...
I found it!
The happiness!! =]

The word in red is who you are and the word in green is someone who asked you.
" the person " change it to "he/her/name"

Hope you would be understands.

I don't mind people copy this or what to post in their blog or any other stuff that they created or something.
My main thing is that people that could help me spread this to the world. =]

31/08/09

2009-08-31T04:45:00.000-07:00

when to sch late today...
half way later around noon meet up with sebas and his friends so i pon sch again... when to OCH lol my first time though
realli feel funny but nvm at least feel something afterwards everyone return home very very sleepy lol even my but somehow after bath i was awake again... lol

First day at OCH

30/08/2009

2009-08-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

haiz.... wat to do??

pon 1 month already theres hope hope to go in poly???

not anymore wat to do should i go sch tmr??
i don wan but like no choice haiz... daddy and mummy wanting me to go sch when ever i nvr go sch i feel bad actually not to tell anyone haiz...

poly huh... haiz.. sch result comfirm have a big big drop think no more airforce already wat to do???
i wanna run but cant...

WE'VE ALWAYS BEEN THIS TO FREE ALL THE PAIN!!!

HOW? HMM DIE! GREAT!

but i cant die everyone don allow me include myself haiz... wat to do carry on??? let see

29/08/2009

2009-08-28T12:32:00.000-07:00

lol a wonderful day i cant be forgetten.. of 29/08/2008 it was 12.30 already when i was struggle wannted to msg her a not but i did lol was just msg her hope she have a great happy day from today onwards. lol nvm flash back to me wanted to be fogotten but cant think that is wat memorize is haiz.. like i say a glass plate broken and wanted to fixed back....
just like u can see a crack mark cant be cease nvm.... hope she had a wonderful place...

ended up met wei wen at blk 531 he was said to walk here but ended up he drive here with his car. than sebas have to go home sad... so wei wen fetch him home...

therefore left me and chee meng and wei wen taizhi lol...

went to kranji to get a pack of cigg than went to kranji there around there take pics and video lol...

like freak like gay lol but was actually hoping other relationship will ended lik us happy ever after lol

is actually a sample for everyone although funny but some out came out through lol like a story hmmm i will upload the pics and the video up to my FB lol haha. but end up i make weiwen tai jien no face by making him a worthless scump =x
anyway just watch the video than

ended up wei wen taizi fetach us home wonderful isnt it lol now is 4am liao

haha missed her maybe just let it be now would be the best

lol fast game

2009-08-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

26/08/09 morning 12 am plus like that go meet malay friends slack as per normal... Azman Zul and chee meng and me... sebas was unable to go out slack so we slack till 4- 5 plus than reach home...

anyway about the game lol i first time play sia...

they call it a faint game.. but i tot off fast sleep refresh game lol cos feel like sleeping for many hours and awake lol
but in actually onli faint for a few second than awake... lik fun so i try many many time but till like scare sia...
i hate the Azman la like cb wanna take out my pants , luckily my pants tight but still got leak something ahhhhh eeehhhhh forget lol have fun watching....like sucide game lol don noe how tell but think i upload in facebook

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=121164744643&saved#/video/?id=727224643

2009-08-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

lol like i say ton ytd till today nvr sleep lol... ahah think today ton again lol

2009-08-23T14:18:00.000-07:00

24/08/09
lol slacking with sebas, chee meng, azman, zul and a shemale at gulin slackin see ghost lol than zul dare me to go near there see so i went and reach there lol slacking all the way till i just reach home.. haha have lots of fun...

nvm think i cant realli write more... stml already gtg to meet sebas and goo school straight haha see ya

something happen to me. think im not a guy anymore

2009-08-22T03:28:00.000-07:00

21/08/09 friday pon sch don noe y can rmb thursday wat i do liao... so whole day watching anime...
than ever since 7 month start my life was bored.. sebas have to reach home be4 10pm
so ended up i and chee meng... went over take late bus to jurong west.. slack with azman...

lol ended see those people like shemale..
i felt bored nothing to do so i suggest we go make friend with them lol..
at first i don noe how to speak to them they really look like a actual girl.. lol onli the apple on the throat onli..
so i got crazy and get number with them but i don noe wat happen to me i msg them very rude.. lol

3 shemale left one rest go home all 3 like azman alot haha all malay anyway..
than something happen to me even me myself found it fuking funny lol... some how i think i like one them and ask her so be my gf lol... rmb is a she cos he a shemale... lol

slack till 5 plus they left we too as in me and chee meng take first bus home.. lol
when i reach home lik fuking funny sia.. his face pop in front of me as though i fall for her... lol FALL FOR HER!!!
lol think i sot liao can manage to sleep this morning cos by 10.15 i should reach bbdc for my theory test...
lol....

finally slpt at 8 plus or 9 plus... than had this nightmare lol..
lucky nvr happen in realistic;

i dream about i suppose to be awake early and go to bbdc but end up i awake at 4pm is lik wat the hell!!!!!
than later somehow got met up with sebas classmate eat at mos than suddenly u saw sm call me lol than i ans.. hear the voice is a man her bf i think say wat y i steal it from him than i blank lol haha than kpkb liao fedup hang up the phone...
the one joker from sebas classmate till tai ji they came at as they i wan close the case ended up make me fed up cos is lik was my worst day ever miss theory test than sm's bf than now this i give one punch on tat pimp's face plus i whack abit more on the other till i think fuck they gangster sia fuck somemore also not my area.. lol then i start to run lol with sebas and the rest.... than i run till i faint out of breath.. than i awake i ended at back to jurong west chit chat with the one who i like lol... then is seems im happy lol... than i kana tai ji again cos i say rude words to his friends come whack lol i cant fight back they realli look lik no diff from girl.. till i sudden heard some one shouted at me he shouted " what time liao still sleeping!!!??? " lol than i was finally awake this time i see time is onli 10.10a, lol wat the hell lucky it was a bad dream sia... phew... lol

i scare dreams alot sometime it happen since i fall off from my bicycle and kana my face and head all seems a dream but real same go to this everything seems so real lucky was a dream...

anyway i realli don noe what happen to me? how can i a proper guy fall for a guy!? somehow i still miss her sia.. lol feeling lik go down see her again... lol

WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!!!!!!!!???????
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

see how ba... now 7.05pm liao...

haiz.... lik fuck sia... what happen to me!? great

11/08/09 1.30am

2009-08-10T10:19:00.000-07:00

anime nice lyris for someone i knew

lol today was Monday 10/08/2009 9.35pm

2009-08-10T08:11:00.000-07:00

lol finally at home just finish dinner. great!

hmm where was i.. oh... haha about the saturday is at 08/08/2009 haha
hmm was been ask out by sebas and chee meng.. suppose meet at 11am than ended up leaving at 11 plus.. can rmb wat time than we together go meet sebas's friend at amk.

While we reach there smoke a stick first, than wanted meet them but was lost.. lol but we thought is the pool there the arcade ended up at amk hub inside the arcade.. was than finally met them..

But than i dislike them cos they treat me lik i owe them derh was fed up and wanted to go home cos they spoil my mood. than chee meng also agree wanted to go home but sebas very sian liao lo... becos of him i stay but i don wanna see them so we go arcade play play play cos sebas wanna wait for them.. ended up fucking long so we decided to watch this movie called " Where Got Ghost? " by Jack neo lol haha

So we got in the Q than while gonna reach our turn they suddenly say they also wanna watch movie than we sian than we left the Q haiz,than nvm so we wait them till they decided to what movie to catch so they when to Q so me and sebas and chee meng went over and i asked polite-ly them " Excuse me, hmm so what movie you all gonna catch? " one of them totally replied me this " We catch what movie, need to report u!? " than i totally shut my mouth and just walk off. Is lik i owe them cb knn onli my gf treat me that way in a joking or maybe serious way... plus they totally no respect at all think they female 14 year old so what? cb ended up fucking fed up cb than go out and have a stick... and i told him i realli wanna go home whats the point of staying? than sebas told me i so long nvr go far places le i jio u out don lik tat can? than okie fine than okie cos of sebas we go catch the movie.... haiz.. the time was 5.50pm

than sebas we go play pool he treat is lik very the first time lo... okie than some how mood was back play pool very accurate than decide to msg a NBR than after that one stupid thing happen the pool area open the song is all i last time hear derh.... half emo half happy. emo cos of song happy cos my NBR soon coming out i was lik wow so long nvr meet liao...

than about one hour later we went smoking again...than i suggest we go play lan games hahaha we went and played onli me and sebas so we play beat up... hahaha... the funny part is i see his screen he saw mine and we played fucking nice lo.. cos we sitted beside each other than we play alot of song this way than soon after everyone watching us play... fucking stress lo hahaha.... one hour later.. we went smoking again...

than chee meng went home cos he not watching with us.. and planned at night me...so we go watch than its was fucking funny ang horror also.. they called is " Hor-medy " lololololol hahahahahahahaha than finally finish watching we meet NBR at clark quacy.. lol don noe how spell la... than NBR suggest as to ton... than firstly we go walk walk, than sebas hungry he ate... while me slack than to notel i think where NBR go take money than we still blank don noe where to slack so i told them since lik tat than we go eat lo... lol ended up i eat lol haha than when finish eating we wait for NBR's brother to come down

when he finally came we go park lane lol think so is like tat spell ba... played pool again.. for one hour and we stuck... at there don noe go where slack don noe do wat so i suggest we go buy this volka drink ended up cant find... haiz... so we go to this 24 Hour coffee shop where NBR'sbrother took his supper haha.. than do u know wats the best part haha all street racer as in driver racing there sia they are POWER SIA!!!!!! hahaha after he finish supper planned to go bugis than kallang.. but we stuck there and its around 3 plus... if im not wrong.... everywhere we go our check point is 7-11 lol haha and we finally got in to this last 7-11 they got sell cigar haha so i bought it and share...

till sebas finally get through wei wen wanted to slack other places but he cmi than we sian... haiz... wei wen say onli can fetch us to batok onli cos he realli cmi liao so i ask them but they wanted to slack there so me and sebas went off.... haha funny part was went we reach home by wei wen fetch around 17 mins onli lol... thats was fast sia... hahahahaha so i ko lo... cos on thay day was 09/08/2009 national day gonna wake up early...
than i ko...

hahaha than finally awake at 3 plus in the afternoon....know what i wear a black formal jacket for girls to wear and a shorts that look like boxer haha and a uncle uncle slipper.. lol haha was on mrt to town everyone look everyone laugh. lol.. the best part was at the city hall station where i stand infront of the open daoor everyone look like im very handosome of the dressing i think xD lol but than the door open i straight a way walk off haha i saw ppl there all stun lol than chee meng told me the ppl stun liao laugh than he cannot tahan also laugh lol haha than i wear like go every where everyone look at me with a funny look lik i was a outer space creature den went to suntec..haha

than got a bit sleepy went to star bucks buy expresso lol double shot again haha everyone inside look at me lik one kind than i ignore.. waiting for the drinks haha when my turn the cup is like mini type lol fucking funny lo.. haha every laugh lol got so un-bare-ress lol if can upload than u see ba haha than at there town la consider don noe is it suntec or other place i don noe where sebas wanna meet his stead... and others but they cmi than we sian...

so we went looking for his stead but cmi again hard to find sia.. so his stead suggest we meet back suntec entrance

When we reach we met sebas friend and is malay.. we talk there slack there hahaha we for his stead...
alot of good thing happening but im not gonna write it out anyway is none of my bussness anyway...

than all went kfc.. to eat.. than suddenly i got this song by sudden where she had this song "when i with you" i listen got emo i went out smoking till the very half stick i smoke, out of the sudden firework appear in front of me clear view also i got shock... and enjoy for awhile than though of them they came but they onli catch the second wave onli... theres 2 wave of fireworks... so we went to cheer got myself a wine got nearly drunk than abit sot also.. don noe y like i change to someone not myself feel the thirts of blood...

went bugis slack awhile than tot of going to chinese garden slack but went we reach that station by mrt the malays wanna go home some more very last min than nvm... and there go 4 of us which is sebas, me, chee meng and sebas's stead

went to AM mart 24 hours shop buy beer drink.. they drink but i didnt not in the mood so i called my friend azman cos he staying around there than when he finally reach was about 10/08/2009 12 plus.. haha slack till 1 plus when over to their near by close-ed sch see pochong...lol no idea go see youtube.. haha.. they saw and i cant i got fed up cos they say got 2 white color thing jumping around the sch hall sian... nvm than we go other place go see than ended up this nearby jurong east there the swimming complex haha didnt met anything but met this crazy uncle we chat we walk inside to that swimming complex lol!!! xD

than lastly chat till around 5 plus we go off the uncle tok lots of crap about history listen than last time amry and police than lots i got fed up and ask him in a rude manner..
"so WHO THE HELL ARE YOU!!!!!?? " he replay this i myself also don noe my own identi...
he told us his undercover than a lecturer than explorer than...

Went off to chee meng house bath and slept till 12 plus than sebas stead go home than sebas went home change. we went to old jurong road where last time those ppl stay in the kampong lol wented there the gate there say is protected area but we ignire and when in for a walk but sian everything was gone become nothing just floor.. we walk very in till half sebas needed to go meet his parents and celebrate his mother birthday...

got bored than i bring chee meng go over some where horror at night but relaxs in the afternoon something like kampong, anyway its something like a pond but is a nice few don noe can upload a not.. later i try lol... till 7 plus he come my house slack tok tok to my dady and help out abit than just now 11.50 chee meng went home cos tmr got sch...

LOL SADED PICS CANT BE UPLOAD HERE FIND GO SEE IN MY FACEBOOK. LATER I PUT LINK I THINK WOULD BE EASILER
@ http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=94583&id=727224643

lol

2009-08-04T22:05:00.000-07:00

friends were asking; People was asking " What is "NBR"? "
Lol actually the Ans was there... the title...; still catch no ball while is...
NBR = Never Be Replace"

so i wont need to repeat myself again...

anyway 5/8/09
pon sch again lol too tired...

cos monday midnight slept at 5.30am
lol have lots of thing in mind but was fun though...hahahaha

than tuesday last min no sch so tusday midnight went to little Gulin goo see Rockers! lol
was though of seeing candy man but ended up Rocker! lol
She was on the hill top using her 2 hands waving at us, us as in me, sebas, chee meng, Azman and Zul..
lol thanks to Azman and Zul i manage to see her lol!><
First in my life time... everyone was hair stand but trying to smoke like nothing has happen..
"Rockers" she know we can see her.. ended up was wanting to follow us.. so Zul suggest that we go coffee shop first before going home.. but ended up we went blk downstair slacking. lol...
before reaching the blk and after leaving little Gulin our hair still standing lol XD
hahaha all thanks to Rockers! and for me is Happiness lol...

than after slacking toking about the places in singapore and malaysia of hunted area..
so i soon planing to go find out with friends soon...
so we chat chat chat till 2am sebas went home than the rest of us went to my house and slack
chat chat chat chat chat... till 3 plus they when home...

And for me i lie on my bed cant sleep been suddenly fucking awake till 5.30am than finally sleep...
but around 8am sebas came to me and wake me up.. i was planing to pon.. cos cmi if go sch i ended up in hospital
than luckily sebas wanted to pon sch so we pon together and ended up sleeping till 11 plus to 12 lol...
anyway consider having a great day but if i keep on lik this pon think my GPA will drop and don ever think of poly anymore....

was planed to meet u there but im afraid i cant do so...
now poly for me is worthless already... think i maybe put plane to u im sorry...
just don realli wan to step in your life and hurt... not good to me and u
i rather keep the good and wonderful memories.....

ANYWAY JUST ALL THE BEST!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-03T05:18:00.001-07:00

1/08/09

2009-08-01T04:09:00.000-07:00

finally my friend dad return me money liao... onli $100
but than still owe me $550 to go....
sian.... motor still haven take...
finally i let go liao i think...

wow is like very long for me to stuggle that 2 to 3 month...
hope i find a way to get more new of myself...

anyway ytd finally meet till wei wen than me sebas and chee meng slacking with him till 12 plus...
than finally know wanna go where than we follow wei wen to take his car.. but car was taken so take pick-up...

lol than we all take his pick-up to jurong bird park there the hill top lol
lol be4 went there we weiwen bought some drinks and peanut.
lol he reckless driver derh lo... pick-up cannot run more than 60 or 80km.. he drive till 100 to 130km/h
sot derh he...
when reach there we lik wow... is like on top of everything and fucking windy..
than we at there chit chat and eat peanut plus drink... don think wrong we drink soft drink la...
till 5 plus....
there fucking cold sia... but i tahan lol...
i was like sian never bring my N81 if not comfirm take pic let u all readers see sia... there very shiok....
than lik i say 5 plus we than go back home...

the best part is when we on his pick-up, sebas wit with wei wen than me and chee meng sit behind which is those open space derh lo...
the funny part is that onli sebas and we don noe that wei wen drive 120km/h and when around the jurong there, he ask sebas " wan ride roller coater?"
sebas was lik " HUH!? "
lol than me and chee meng is chattin behind than don noe anything... lol

then he chiong till 130km/h and we suddenly lik flying and shiok lol...
chee meng's heart was going to throw out from his mouth but stuck at thraot lol...
i was shiok and was having fun see chee meng the face white white i keep laughing lol!!!
hahahahhahahaha... than they ask did we get shiok till wan pass water!? i was lik no but chee meng was lik ya! ya ! ya!
lol... than chee meng told me luckily be4 leaving jurong bird park got go toliet if not he comfirm wet pants at the pick- up...
anyway i was shock also... cos i sit behind the wind compress my face haha... maybe too long nvr take his pick-up liao...
lol than when wei wen drive till around 120 or 130km/h i think i cant open my eyes.. wind strong nvm still got like sands shooting...lol than my hair hitting my face also lol... bo bian la. wind too strong liao....

haha than wei wen drive chee ming home than me and sebas.. haha when we reach home is was lik 5.30pm in the morning of august 1...

than i went to sleep...

haiz.. sad nvr bring my N81 to take pics... WASTED!!!!!!!!
WAT A WASTE!!!!!!!!!
haiz...
nvm think next time must bring liao!...

haha thats all i gonna write for today! think onli we know onli understands.. i think other readers don understands. lol...
psps my english few.. but u can meet leave your number in tagged box or add me in msn than call me and we go slack i can tell u wor!!!
LAME

try la.. if u realli want to make friends with us!

2009-07-22T05:13:00.000-07:00

just seems 2 story is different.
wonderful don need bother or care.
no one is able to be trust no one at all onli babys. =]

2009-07-22T04:59:00.000-07:00

lol ever since from last week saturday i had high fever, saturday end cure ans so sunday morning high fever monday moring cure and got flu did go sch.
tuesday went to sch no lesson. than went back home still having flu till today...
today didnt go sch cos of heavy flu...

and today is a most best day ever!

sun is being block by moon...

think no one knows what it means..

but for me i feel that im not alone again where they also have the same feeling as me... think u alll don understands but yup. =]

2009-07-20T06:33:00.001-07:00

abang thold me something just now... don noe when sm told him i got new gf and i break with her beacuse of that...
wat the hell im trying to msg her all i can and now im still single... i wan make business?? no i was working in 7-11
the the helll after we got broke up she straigh have a new bf.. so whos bluffing??

y have to treat me like this wat i done wrong?
i don know////

forget it to lot to write down but i cant write down yet. i have to comfirm a lot of thing with abang first be4 i write down... realli fed up..
she told abang i have new gf so i break with her. but in fact who break with who and who have new relationship??
nvm i have to comfirm with him first be4 i make any wrong dision..

lol

2009-07-20T01:39:00.000-07:00

finally!!!! im back for the past few months...
hope everythings okie...
shit...
saturday having high fever but cure sunday morning but end up night high fever again..
today first day pon sch without any mc cant see doctor...
anyway.... nvm think hope by tmr i'll be back to sch ba...

all the best to everyone may god bless you all healthy and all the best to all your studys for those who read lol

14/06/09

2009-06-14T02:57:00.001-07:00

i nvr treasure who i love she said so her blog...

lol yeah hahaha... i didnt treasure when i did care who don wanna reply everything say till as if i myself wrong... anyway lazy to say haiz...

all the best!!!

hahaha!!! =]
all the best i will clear everything today....
no linked from today!!
hahaa no one ask u to shead tears when u wanted.
to...

no one ask u bother to read...
so y??
lol...

funny sia u... haha thanks!!!

=]

14/06/09

2009-06-14T01:32:00.000-07:00

lol just awake at 4plus found something to upload...

13/06/09

2009-06-13T10:11:00.000-07:00

lol 12/06/09

work 11pm to 7 am at 7-11
wow very shang ar...
heavy also think i wont work on any saturday liao..
if not i will get not enough sleep

till morning on 13/06/09
8 plus reach home chat with daddy to 9 plus 10 than sleep
3.45pm awake needed to go to woodland with dickson...
reach there about 5 plus.
slack at there till 6 than take ah ma car to hougang...

was wondering wanna to smg her a not ended up msg her but no reply..
think she out of country ba...
with something important.

nvm reach hougang tua...
slack till 12 plus now just reach home and rite this..

now according to my home time is 1.30am which is 14/06/09
liao time when fast wor...

anyway i wanted to upload new song since friday...
think tmr i than upload the song and lyrics... when im free and enough of sleep..

Dont love you no more is found by her...
and now i got new song found by me...
i not gonna tell u wat the song name is but tmr i will update =]

haha gtg derrick waiting for me to play online game with him...
haha
all th best!!!

12/06/09

2009-06-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

11/06/09

last min boss ask me to work at sunrise.
lol is from 11pm-7am
lol

was fucking bored luckily all got derrick's friends.
all chat tok tok drink lol even though i working i still drink but kana scold by them lol. nvm

till 3 plus 4 all gone home already
do all my stuff till 7 plus..
which is today 12/06/09
ask my dad to fetch me home. lol
haha dad's the best...
anyway reach home chat chat with daddy, slept at 9 plus.
just now awake at 3 plus finish bloggind not is 3.45pm lol

haiz suddenly feel my house very empty onli my dad my mum andd me...
no one else.
last time when my third brother was around still got maid can chit chat with the maid or my kor
they moved to their new house liao
than we feel fucking funny lik lost something...
haha

if u knew how i feel of that, how do u feel when u love in love with it and gone?
lol she knew u ove her but time has change break is break.. lol
so i don realli think im still single.. =x lol
is lik take a "break" u know like "breaktime" or even better "teabreak"
lol

anyway later nite need to do sunrise again.lol but this tim diff
lol this time is 10pm-7am
but again same thing like yesterday//
i working solo, lik the shop i owned lol.. but quite tough i don mind though.
but sad thing is always the radio cant switch off, plus keep playing
ALL OR NOTHING BY O TOWN
lol plus lot other of my feb 14 onwards song lik i don neeed to bring my phone and listenn derh

gtg now need rest very tired.

today 11/06/09

2009-06-10T22:41:00.000-07:00

lol haha

10/06/09

end up nvr go to cmpb
haha i need to book first than can go for the check up test.

finally book think soon need go in to ns for serivce le...
hope soon got school wanted me if not i going in liao..

haiz.....

than was whole day at home.
playing audi than later garean
playing with derrick at night. till 1 plus than i ps him... lol
cos need to slack with sebas and friends at my house downstair...
till 2 plus reach home...
was tired wanted sleep.
reach home lie down on my bed suddenly cant sleep

y?
cos suddenly the feel become more worst and worst where is her?
how was she?
should i msg her?
or?
worst part i heard that express Os ended at nov
still super long... lor... think i need to find out when they started..... lol... hahah

anyway was awake at 12 plus now... =]

today 10/06/09

2009-06-09T21:55:00.000-07:00

09/06/09
wake up at the afternoon...
play audi...
till lvl 6
finally hahaha
than chat with dickson in msn...
lol he ytd drink 10 can than today not enough money drink
than we meet bout 10 can than go drink lol...
hahaha i was super sleepy but e_ _ again ...
think how was she...
she lik mia le.. recently i go see her blog nvr update...
than read her last post is lik wow lor...
haiz... hope everyone in her family are find...
haha.... than went home at 12plus.. sleep
lol

than today 10/06/09
just awake just now at 12 plus again...
later 1 plus 2 plus lik tat need go with my daddy to CMPB
haiz.. cos last few day cant log in sad.. today must go....
anyway noe is 1pm... according to my home clock...

feeel very funny... very bad....
i M_ _ _ you alot S_ _ _ M_ _
DO YOU KNOW THAT!!!!!!!
think tats for all for now.

08/06/09

2009-06-08T01:29:00.001-07:00

07/06/09
where was i?? hmm if im not wrong i wake up at 12 plus..
chiong audi till 7.45pm than off to work.
started at 8pm-2am as usally but this time a bit different
after i finish my shift i lepak with with them..

lol... haha i realli hate 7-11
do you know y?
cos the radio play the song is all my feb14 onwards song...
make me feel E_ _ alot//
wanted to write out everything here but..
isnt meant to be read and also isnt meant to be writen....
why?
its over..

nvm back to the lepak thing with them.
and i do voluteer work lol..
till sunrise which is 7am..
lol... not my work i work.. lol

$38 fly lol plus this saturday i take off $28 fly again..
lol total $66 fly lol. cos need to go down hougang..
tua thing... but i hope i still can over come everything when they drive pass her house.

reach home at 8 plus. lol which is today 08/06/09
slept. till 12 plus 2 awake. lol.
till now at home lepak..
didnt had any food from yesterday till now.
lol don noe y.. maybe habit lol
all thanks to the 7-11 song.. play at thr rite time lol..
haha
think

thats all for today... gonna chiong audi! =]
haha
say HUAT LA!!!!!!

07/06/09

2009-06-06T09:24:00.001-07:00

lol
05/06/09

haiz.. yesterday awake go meet new friends...
3 ah beng
1 real ah beng 16 age stay at jurong west
1 guai kia 16 age stay at jurong west
1 step beng lol 19 age stay jurong west

lol than nite time reach home chiong audi.. slept late

06/06/09
awake at 1 plus.. got lots of miss call from boss.. lol
wanted me work 2 to 11 but wheni was 3 to 11
so i agree 2 went work..
till just now go bath now 12.45am which is sunday le.. lol

anyway i don noe wat to say.. when i yesterday which is
05/06/09
those fucker delete my msg....
which is about the "nites dear <3" from her
till today and now don noe wat to say.
Feel very funny,..... haiz....
maybe this is wat meant to be?
but i don wan end like this i wan wait for her till her Os finish
than patch but now...
haiz... don noe wat to say... think till she get herself a new bf than bo bian i have to give up ba....
or maybe not...
still very funny now.. lik no mood... lol

don noe i just felt so stupid been break cos her exam....
i wondering did she ever love me be4?
i don dare ask.... currently she having Os also...
after Os ask liao think she no feel liao ba...
haiz.....
love her wanted her to be the best and happy...
end up i lost her... hope if she is those kind just slap me and walk off lol (which i realli don wan that)
last time read her blog she seems okie... think i don bother her by reading?
i don noe should i carry on read a not?
haiz....

haiz...

think i go chiong audi now to divet my brain ba...
bye!

today thursday already haiz....

2009-06-03T22:28:00.000-07:00

ytd 03/06/2009

8.30am start exam suppose ended at 10.30am but i finish at 9am haiz,,,

haiz... some how emo when i heard the song she listen too
the song of " Dont Love You No More by Craid David "

Haiz now slacking in school.
EMo.....Haiz.. let it be like this ba....

Lol than my 3 friends including alvin,
all wear home cloths to school.
Than kana chase out by out Campus Manager.
Lol tha we follow oh yeah i with dickson..

Haiz... now outside school slacking..
LOL than slack for awhile go back school.
Go canteen and have a drink.

...Back to stadium slack with dickson's classmate...
First time see they all study for exam wor...
but soon enough end up playing cards... lol

12.18pm liao....
One of them shout for toilet break.
Than one of them go played a song call " nan ren ni ren "
Than got Emo again... haiz.. sad.... don noe why...
Haiz still slacking at there,.... somewho wondering she finish her "o" le ma??

LOl dickson and his classmate exam starts at 3pm is like fuking long la..
than wee slack till derrick came over and slack...

Finally their exam start le...
i now outside the exam area out...
Waiting for them to finish..
3.30pm le stilll haven come how wor...

Finally 4pm they come out le...
than we go carpark where one of derrick friends ride motor
so we go play... lol...

Than he go back le... we take bus...
i inside the bus don noe how or when i fall asleep...
luckily derrick and dickson need to alight before me so they wake me up...

Finally reach home start play online game with derrick and dickson from 6.30pm to 12am lik tat dickson sudden fall asleep... lol
than his gf offline for him...
we were lik shock la.. y suddenly leave game??
hahaha i called and ask so i know wat happen
then i go tell derrick on phone...

Soon enough we carry on playing.. lol
we play till 04/06/2009 morning 5.30am lol...
i cant take any more so when to sleep and everything at 5.40am

Today 04/06/2009..

1pm awake... tranfering all this to here now i finish at 2pm lol..
hmmm think i post first ba... =]

2009-06-02T07:13:00.000-07:00

lol lalalala today nothing much just sleep whole day!!!!
weeeee

tml my last paper of exam!!!!

chiong ar.....

lol lazy study. or i mean not mood study... lol hahahaha

HUAT LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol will die ar...

2009-06-01T03:07:00.000-07:00

last friday boss last minute want me go work...

so is 9pm till from 7am..
reach home around 8am i think

than work 2pm till 11pm. on saturday.
after work i go dickson house with derrick go there slack play comp till morning
than i call my dad fetch me so about 12 lik that i left dickson house.
reach home and slept at 1pm if im not wrong,
than work 8pm till 2am on sunday till morning monday.
so reach home around 2.30am..
bath than straight went to bed...
tot can sleep end up cant sleep.. don noe why haiz...
around 5.30am finally can sleep le...
but at 7.45am been wake by dad...
bath again... left home at 8am..
i tot i was late...
cos my exam start at 8am.
but when i reach school at 8.35am.. teacher ask me y late?
i was wanted to beg him for exam..
cos after 8.30am cant go in to the exam area anymore.
lol
he just told me faster go in i happy sia!!! and shock y so good...
end up found out exam start at 8.30am. stupid me....
haiz...

than nvm i did bring pen for exam...
so should be okie...
but i forget need to bring pencil cos need to shade for the ans aat section A
haiz... 60 marks le!!!!!

haiz... than i hack care la... shade with using pen.. luckily is i take pen isblack ink derh...
lol... but don noe computer can scan a not... hope can la..
if not i straight away got zero for section A...
than section B fill in the black....

haiz...

i last person go in the exam area...
and u know wat i was the first to leave the exam room lol...

think u should know hows my result ba????

haha think u guess also know la...
haiz....

reach home at 10 plus i think went over see her blog..
was sad somehow...
now is 6.34pm... think i forgot wat she write le...
don want to go see... next time ba....

cos somehow after i read her blog, i don noe wat happen to me don feel lik eating...
lik funny sia... even simple small meal i cant finish wor...
was very tired... wanted to sleep but can so i just now trying to play games and upload songs to here lor.... the songs i always listen to...
next time go blog not need on song liao.. so ma fun...
upload to blog much more easier wor..
haiz....

we told u not to give up on study... cos i regret in secondary sch...
so i don give up now even i in ITE
Its the End school...

u know!?
haiz... ITE is nothing to be proud of...
anyway... eveni regret... now i also regret...
cos wat.. think i prefer regret is easiler than not beening,,
cos y!?

i m LAZY
/WAt to do?

although i know just by doing wat im doing now is relax but comfirm when i grew up my parent will go outer space than i will work lik hell and cant even take care myself...
fuck

so pls JY don give up on Study!!!!! LSM!!!!

cant write anymore...

don noe y sudden feel my eyes very watery...
gtg.... think i need sleep ba....

DON GIVE!!!!!!

too watery liao cant see properly...

take care and have a HUAT LA LIFE!!!!

Which is WONderFul Life!!!!
can post anymore bb

today 29/05/2009

2009-05-29T16:48:00.000-07:00

lol today my boss last min sia..

Ask me work sun rise which is 9pm to 7am sia

lol dot

just wrote so much at its all gone is about..

i last time think of sm when i had a chance to msg but i $choose not too
now wat to msg but can scare i will interrup her Os. she had her Os at next week at monday so do i. but me onli monday and wednesday...

haiz... just wish all the best to her !!!
just finish typing at 5.32am
need to sleep liao later need work at 2pm to 11pm haiz.. wasted all i type just now... haiz..... nite ba...
cos now my own day now still 29/05/09 although is 30/05/2009 but i haven sleep i sleep later than counted...

haiz....... internet just now got problem ba... haiz....
AAAAALLLL THE BEST!!!!!

feeling good at first for something new. but sad for past

2009-05-28T02:29:00.000-07:00

lol can rmb ytd or today... haiz... finally got something new today... suppose to be happy but...
somwhow... feel sad.... just by transfering memorise from my old comp to new comp than emo... lol

but is okie... till i saw wat i did.... i caught 1 photo of her...than straight feel not good.. haiz...

sad somehow..

anyway today i pon school... again... too tired don feel lik go sch... feel lik msging someone but... think not... try so hard think i still haven let go...

that time saw her blog le... so she fine at least she stronger than me let go and cure much more faster...

i wanted to tag... so i tag with alll good stuff for her. end up found that i flood... haiz... i didnt meant to flood.... or being sarcastic....

anyway if u think that way... than nvm...

haha i put my name as boon huat cos... when ever i go they wan my intro for work than i give end up everything come call me boon huat lol... hahaha.... think i be boon huat better than boon hock... haiz..... should i forget her all should i carry on as friends?? pain pain pain...

y she ditch me!? lol cos she feel pain and i don???
haiz.... told myself again is over... haiz.... think next time i have the mood on typing than i transfer here right away....

feel lik mia.... haiz... depend i feel okie a not.... bye! boon hock!!!!

jy boon huat!!!! lol! -=]

fuck day at the end. i spoil everything everyone's mood

2009-05-26T00:58:00.000-07:00

Today wake up at 11.30 felt super sleepy....
Den rush to school.
Tot was late.
But end up i found that its start at 1.30pm to take test.

Lol. 1.21pm just started raining heavily. Haiz.
Now was outside of the test area waiting for time to pass.
Hearing the song of " I will be " by Avirl Lavigne.

Wow finally the song finish, the test area just open. Lol
Now seeing ppl go in.
Now hearing the next song of " Always " by Jon Bon Jovi. Lol.

Now still raining super heavy.

Yesterday tot can let go.
But somehow seems lik now i still cant let go.

Haiz now walking to the test area.
One of my classmate asked me to sit beside him.

So i walk over and sit...
Den lol he said he wan to copy me during test cos im strong lol.

I put my phone w550 phone on my shirt the pocket.
Still hearing song played.
Plus waiting for the teacher to give out the test paper.
Now sit in there 1.25pm.

Haiz, finally my song finished.
Haha now the next song is.....
I don noe need to see..
Hmmm buti think no need, see try by hearing i know wat song a not.
Oh this song i know is " Check yes juliet " by We The Kings.

By the way when i had this song was during the 3 months never meet her, i heard the song and upload this song to blog but was music video.
Lol, was planning when i take my bike and bring her out and enjoy the breeze plus go anyway we want.
So wonderful.
But its all over le. =]
Haha. Sing with the song beening played. with happiness last time..
Now.. just the feel of lost.

Lol 1.30pm le... Next song is play " I'll Be " by Edwin McCain.
My phone played the song was loud from just now till now. Lol.
I just ignore, the way ppl staring at me and the teachers. Haha.
Don noe just feel lik it. Haha.
Anyway the test haven started yet, cos the ppl are very noisy lol.
But i still can enjoy my song cos is loud. =]

I think i had the habit of typing in N81 before i transfer to blog. Haha Shiok Sia!
Lik record everything i lik.
Think when this song is over i off my phone le..
Cos now teacher is giving out the test paper.
Lol, just finish typing, the song finish liao.

So i off it before it start a new song again.

My coughing still haven cure yet =[
But nvm think later when i finish my test paper than go back home sleep.
Cos tonite i 8pm to 2am need to work at 7-11.
My day are pack.

Anyway i don noe when's my major exam lol till i ask my classmates just now.
Its next week monday 01/06/2009 and 03/06/2009 wednesday.
Than my holiday starts for 5 weeks include the exam week.
Den school reopen for result and industry attchment.

Just got my test paper 2 at 1.40pm.
think i can start the paper le...
0.0 sian... still need paper 1 to start the paper cos paper 2 got MCQ ans sheet and section B fill in the blanks..
Sian still haven start wor... already 1.45pm liao, the teacher drag wor...

Lol, ever wonder how i still can use my phone on test area?
Cos is TEST!
LOL lame rite!? haha
Onli exam den not allow, cos once caught and u be never to take exam again.
Serious huh!

Now i see other ppl all start the test paper 2 without the teacher say " To start test "
Now every ppl around me busy copy from book.
Den i still haven start yet cos busy typing now for lik record the things around me lol.

Hmmm now teacher just give paper.
1 once i got it den off i go liao den cant msg le..
Just realise that i didnt bring bag or books to study or revise...
I also no time to study cos too busy liao...
Cos of yesterday.

This test is important cos this subject exam got test derh..
But lol i didnt study for it, too sleepy liao.
Haiz, just hope i can clear all question even if i don noe how to do.
Better den leaving a blank, totally no mark.
Cos i like to give all my best to test and exam.
Cos even this test got counted in the result slip.

Fuck finally got my paper 1 at 1.55pm.
Got to go need to start paper liao..
All the Best!!!

Finally finish at 2.33pm lol.
During in the test period everyone start coping each other, some more power take out book and copy. Lol.
Den left me myself, haiz... ppl even copy me.
Haiz... i don noe how to do than anyhow do. LOL
Rather than copy more worst.
cant learn from mistake.

when come out of the school the rain stop.

3.27pm in 985 bus with dickson at bukit timah liao.
Cos just now was reading The New Paper during taking bus till just now.

Just reach home at 4pm.
I was like OMG time fly fast.
Although i did recod the time but i didnt notice..

Just finish transfering to blog... now 4.42pm liao...
how to rest wor???
nvm i try see how... later than post all this
Think i save in draft first later maybe tomorrow morning or tonight post it...

Today 26/05/2009 just save to draft at 4.45pm
Going to switch/turn off my comp.

Was working from 8pm till now 10.33pm.
Was lik super bored although got customers.
Hmmm some customer like so fuck lo.
Give attitude derh.

Haiz, just now learning all the Derrick's work puting the poster, the price tag and the headers need to tie on the ceiling.
Den some more Derrick not working there anymore.
Put plane on me, haiz
I don noe i can work there for how long wor...

Now resting my legs outside 7-11 cos inside no chair onli outside have.
haha been wondering how i can outside resting!? haha
Cos i work with a partner thats y...
But we don noe each other well so didnt chat much.
Now need go back work le.. Bye!

Now 12.45am was no customer, very boring cos mt partner friend come den he slack with him outside all malay talk malay den i sian...
So i now inside 7-11 alone hearing radio the songs.
All the songs are slow... but some romantic derh...
Hmmm quite boring haiz....

Wondering how was she?
Is she alright?
Haiz; i don dare msg her, scare later she emo or wat den affected to her studys or exams.
Hope she's doing fine. =]

Haiz... maybe is all my fault to go take bike lesson and go work.
Den she tot i wan to leave her ba.
Think not. Is i think too much ba. Haiz.
Feeling quite hopless.
Doing nothing plus cant do anything for her.
Maybe she needed me when i was not there with her.
Think im the worst boyfriend ever. Haiz
Or maybe we'll were not meant to be together. Haiz.

Finally finish work.
But still slacking outside with Derrick and his friends and help out my partner cos he solo to sun rise.
Now 2.26am.

But something bad comes.
FUCK wanted to slack with them cos raining.
Cant go home ma.
Den my dad suddenly appear when Derrick told me.
Before i start work i told my dad to go sleep, den when i need to go home will call him end up this out of the sudden i left the place.
FUCK! CB! (i never told that my dad face to face just inside my heart.)
I was very angry.
And was nothing to say.
My dad happily come over fetch me when i finish work, den i spoil everyone's mood.
Fuck!
Wat to do shout to him already change everyone's mood already.
Wat to do?
Don feel lik toking don ask y.

Fed up!
If i noe this would happen, i should have already finish my bike lesson and work to buy bike.
Den everything would be okie.
She wont have to break up with me and this wont have to happen.
Regret borrow money to dickson's dad.
Should have clear bike first than work to buy bike.

Ah ya! don wanna say anymore things liao more say more angry more angry more regret.
Fuck!

REALLI nothing to say..... already happen cant change anymore.
therefore i learn 1 lesson even if the situation is bad... and angry,
First : " Think "
Second : " Think twice "
Third : " Think of word needed to be say out before everyone's mood change "
Forth : " Think the words to be say out and dont regret "
And lastly : " Say out all with a good and happy mood/face or happiness before doing anythings that regret/mood change "

Just finsh all this now is 3.37am.
Don have anything wan to typing liao...
After all that...
Anyway all the best the everyone who reads!
=]

lol my wonderful day at the end of 25/05/09

2009-05-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

After work finish at 2am.
Broke my quit cig thing.
Smoking and slack with derrick and work mates till 4am den go home.
Tot was very tired but when i lie on my bed i just cant sleep...don noe why...
Till 5 where my dad fall asleep.
Den went to my study room for smoke back there i realise i left with onli 4 stick.
Memorize flash back again. But this time more worst.
Each day passes each day become more worst.
Heart is lik crying or cracking... i don noe but i cant cry out loud..

OH YEAH i forgot i borrow dickson's dad $650 for his bike.[cos if he cant pay den no work anymore; lik his rice bowl]

Anyway back to the topic. Lol. I realise that although she was my number 5 ex but
she was the first girl who slpet at my bed,
the first girl who i bought a couple ring worth 3 digit,
the first girl whom i loved till tot of marriage
and who was the first girl whom i waste so much on her... and with her.

Lol. Anyway she's rich. Money for her is nothing though but for me is something...
Im toking about is not the money thing...
Is the feeling that i had with her.
Just by 5 month nvr hold hands and lc which she don wan (cos i smoke) plus about 3 months nvr meet.
With msg her that she didnt reply or got reply mostly 1 word if not, not longer than 10 words except i told her about i taking bike, end up broke up with me for the stupid major exam.

Anyway still hoping she didnt read this and hoping she pass her exam of "O" level.

I got no idea she got torture of?
I got no idea why end up this way?
Is it im not good enough?
Just hope that she got someone in mind.... but in fact not.
She just broke up cos of major exam.
Anyway i typing on phone rite now which is 5.45am monday.
My last stick now.. LOL..

Cos i cant sleep. Don noe y feel stupid. All this happen lik having a nightmare but no... is the fact. Oh yeah i forgot today is monday 25 may 2009 later still have to go school at 8am.

Think wat am i wrong?
Cos i didnt meet her?
Or is it when i free, she's not but when she free, im not so end up nvr meet?
Haiz. Feel lik this is realli my First love gone to her although she's my number 5 exgirlfriend.

Feel lik dying rite now.
But i cant cos theres lots of things for me to do.
Working, schooling and parents are waiting for me to support for them.
Haiz. Time fly slow by just staring at the time.
I think i can become God lol cos didnt had any food since friday.
Don noe why just don feel lik eating.
Onli drink plain water.
Don think too much tat i never eat cos of my ex, i just not hungry don noe y.

Now staring at the hearts thats she gave me...counting...
Plus with my last stick of cig.
Smoking. Lol. Wondering when is my last stick.
Hopfully i no more cig to smoke and try again to quit.
OMG!!! my gums still not okie yet lol.
When i spill i saw blood. Lol Lame..
Haiz my mum awake le. Crap.
I hate my gums been wasting blood whein i spill.
Oh.... 99 hearts that she fold...
Lol. but i don noe wat it means..

Just found that by typing all this, makes me feel better.
And sleepy. Crap sia.
Now finally finish my last stick.
Just by looking at the window now, the sun lik sleeping wor...
Hmmm now im back to my room lie-ing on my bed.

By just watching at the time now is 6.05am more worst cant sleep have to wait time fly than go bath and everything.
But somehow i now feel lik sleeping lol.
But i cant.
Haiz. later need to be in school at 8am cos 8am start class got test.
I didnt even bother to study or read.
Just don feel lik it.

Haha. Now my room is all up with darkness den onli my hands holding my N81 typing lol.
It looks funny, cos onli my phone is lighten up.
Haiz. Hope today school end early so later reach home can rest more.
Lol. Just yawn feel super sleepy think i rest for a while see how if i nvr type means i sleep liao.
Lol. hug pillow still cant sleep.

Den struggle till 6.30am finally fall asleep without knowing.
Till my dad wake me up at 7.45am lol. =]
Haha was late for school.
But still rush to school.

Somehow i onli realise that i onli slept for onli 1 hour plus.
But i felt quite awake right now.
Now in school at 8.13am

Anyway one funny thing is that i don noe is that me a not.
Cos when i wake up first thing i smell was my brother's cig feel lik vomit.
Lik i never had any cig before lol.
Now even though i still coughing but i still feel that today is a refresh day! =]

Lik everything went smoothly.
Lol somehow feel very happy.
Not from my body i think... 0.o Lol xD
Haha.... Happiness. =]
Think thats all i gonna write for now. =]
Haha happiness out of me! ^^

Wow now is 4.34pm was now in bus 985...
Wow the air-con was nice cos of the weather fucking hot. Lol.
But nvm today i never have much sweat as the normal days Lol.
First time sweat till very thirsty lol.
Although i don lik hot weather but somehow today i seems to enjoy it. LOL
Now still in bus at PIE. than to dickson house.
Get a change than need straight go to hougang to celebrate with all Mr White and Mr Black Birthday.
Wonderful isnt it!! Lol..
Think when i reach dickson house den tranfer all my word here to blog.

Sometimes i do scare that she read my blog den later affected to her exams or studys.
But i don intend to hide hide just post all out.
Just hope that she's not that free to read. Lol
Think this time is my first time write this long lik a compo.
But actually not.
Just happen to write all down of my happenings either sad or happy, just write down as a story for me to read when i got bored or Sua Sua got accident or something or lost memorize so i can read through my blog to recall back. =]

Hmmm think i don write anymore later my phone no batt den can type anymore. =/
Phew! At 4.48pm i was in the bus just now, the bus was driving at the constant speed.
But den it suddenly brake or stoped lol.
Phew lik i said accidently lol.
Think don say much would be better lol.
If not from wat i type for now in future just guessing which is fiction can turn to fact lol.
I don wan this fact wor...

Anyway now at bukit timah le.
Once i take abit of rest of my hand on typing.
Now at timah. Wow. LOL that was fast! =]

Reach dickson house.. but cannot use comp wor...
His gf using; think later when i reach home than tranfer lo. Sad.

Lol now in bus 985 to boon keng.
Boring 6.30pm on PIE high way looking at those cars and motors.

Finally in the mrt going to hougang.
But not hougang mall is hougang plaza. =]
7.03pm reach hougang mall with dickson.
At first i tot i will feel funny but...
Funny i felt nothing. lik as per normal.

Just reach the place at 7.14pm
Haiz. 9.02pm finally ended....
Wow it was lik hell lol.

When dickson jump 3 year old God, been walking 3 to 4 rounds around the place.
He give sweets to ppl. and to me too 3 lollipop and 4 sweets! lol.
And we just walk with Him just for taking care of Him.
One funny part about him is that he eat the sweets with the plastic. LOL.
Den we all blank for about few den tell Him that the plastic from the sweets haven take out.
But He just ignore.
lol.
Den one of us tell Him that the plastic cant be eaten so he taken out for Him and throw away.

Hmmm got alot of ppl see him jump that God . Lol. than the ppl blank lol
lik never see before a young teen can jump God. lol.
haha think he gonna be famous!!
Cos got ppl take video cam of the whole thing when start till the ended.

Haha After all have a wonderful day though.
Hmmm i think my life still worth to carry on =]

finally finish writing now is 11.52pm..

was busying tranfer the words from phone N81 to blog.
plus eating haha don noe somehow got so fucking hungry... maybe cos of i eat the sweets that the God eat half way pass it to me to asking me to eat ba... or maybe i too long nvr eat than hungry lor... lol...

hahah i still eating wor... full of food.. to eat ar... weeee....

i think im able to let go i think... or maybe not....
not sure have to depend later when i finish my food and try to sleep see whether can a not...

Ahhh shit now 12 am liao is 26/05/09 liao i haven sleep and see my next day and now is my
next day liao lol...

finally finish my food at 12.01am...
lol...

k la... my longest post of all post i think.....
here theres a new song for u guys to go check the song out! =]

had this song at 25/05/2009 3plus am...

Every Little Thing by Dishwalla

feel funny

2009-05-24T02:10:00.000-07:00

ever wake up and though of quiting? lol...
today never had any cig cos nvr buy//
wanted to quit but feel like smoking... lol... this nvr change when a smokers wawn to quit lol...
been looking for others to replace it....
pooor blog u been recieving wat i told u about quiting but i started back again .. and again...
like changing a habit...
ppls say this right u learn bad as easily as 3 days.. but once u wan to change to be better is hard as 3 years even though it just today....
below throat somewhere around chest... been having a feel to throw out something but cant...
maybe is smoking ba... ytd go smoke my last stick felt better by bit.. not many tooo lol...

haiz..... now is 24/05/2009 5.15pm...
lol hmmm waiting to go for my work at 8pm to 2am... than again sch....
wondering wanting to smoke or just quit???
my whole gums already cant take in the ciggarettes i smoke..
last time is when brush teeth than bleed.. but now like i cant taste blood when ever i go wonder...
who would wan that!? =]

haiz.... songs being heard in my mind without switching my phone on...
or songs being played...
lol.... think i gettin a hang of being sot!? toking to myself to my blog...
tok to myself or another person... lol...
i don noe... which one is me!? or both is just the same old me!? lol....
i think i need to go for mental hospital and check out...

loll

haiz.... maybe blog is best for me to stay at home and slacking at home and onli blog who tok back lik pets... how wonderful.... who listens and see don need typo wrong or english fail lol...
but lik stupid... living inside a world of yours... ..
lol my ever trying to post here is my intent to help...
but i was wrong blog is a persons dairy... when i read those... they say not happy pls leave i was like lol...
not happy than not happy lo... no one ask u read to be happy also...
sometime ppl are quite funny...
dare to post their wonderful life and their fake words out lol...
living in their shadows... poor thing...

those readers who think u are who im saying than u are wrong... cos im saying myself ...
i been living in others shadow to be wanted and not wat i wanted...
u know as in....

to be wanted!!!??
and not to be
wat i wanted!???

lol
something lik this... but now... is
lik i don noe wat i wanted like back to the old me who is aimless...
life is nothing when u don have any aims....
so y bother... feel happy ;lik =]
not happy than =[
but mostly in singapore ppl onli accept =] and not =[
lol so wat i meant was onli western area of earth lol... no matter u are =] or =[ they still noe u...
y???
the place we live in the envoirment

lol...

y tok to this...
flu is cure.. now left cough wow....
curing fast...
but my gums....
failure... who love to suck unhealthy blood look for me...!! lol....
been cough lik an old man...

WHOS LET THE OLD MAN OUT!!!!
who who who who... lol

haiz.... byebye huat!
boon huat jy...

lol my workplace ppl call me boon huat! so lol jy!!!

dear blog, think tonight i wont be toking to u but we still have a count down...
which is 5 more days to our day!!! wa... hahahahha... im stuck i think...

yawn...Zzz... see ya!

23/05/2009

2009-05-23T10:18:00.000-07:00

lol
ytd
after my big news i was super happy lol my dad dickson his girlfriend was there..
lol i been very happy my dad act blur than dickson say haiz.. and his girlfiend told me ppl suppose to be cry lik hell and i was happy lik fuck... lol... i sot derh ar... lol..

later night went over to dickson house for a celebration which i promise..
sebas didnt turn up cos need hong girl girl.. derrick didnt turn up too cos of work.. and the rest didnt reply.. don noe why.

so end up i and him drink till i tot i was durnk but end up was not druck after 1 henliken of 500ml and a full cup of hennesys.. lol plus got smoke la but i cant think y from ytd morning till night i didnt eat anything i suppose i was easily drunk but this.. lol...

than 11 plus end up at home. ppls say drink much and drunk will sleep good... so i plan sleep early and today is a new day for me a refresh day...
but sua is i ended up been smoking trying to make myself sleep after cant sleep till 3plus am(flash back memorise cant think other things cant sleep i hate it lo) lol..

but than 4plus 5 finally slept... which i don noe how i fall asleep than

today morning 10 plus i awake be4 my alarm rang at 11am...

awake get prepare.. my dad prepare breakfast for me but i cant take lik don have the feel of hunger.. lol... end up didnt eat but the pills for my sick...

although ytd i tot of wat for go sch? wat for go work? wat for go take bike?

but for my life my parent's sake i have to carry on and force myself through... lol...

so i reach at 7-11 at 12pm sharp for my work and end at 9pm for my work...
finally pull through i tot i cant cos of illness.

than went over to dickson house where his girlfriend with him...(his girlfriend staying at his house maybe forever cos her mother throw her out so bo bian she now live in her bf house which is dickson.. lol)
we slack than watch tv till 1 plus... for channl 8 show...

now just reach home... and wrote all this...

lol my ever first record on drink beer and hard liquior
without having any food and carry on eating pills with our food from ytd till today...

lol....

ppls say drienk cant take pill... but ytd nite i just did but nothing happen... maybe is about everyone's body different can take different things... lol....

don noe y i happen to be cant delete this msg from her which is " Night dear <3" and there i go for reply of "Nites! Muack!"

lol...

don noe y... hearts pain somehow maybe im stuck lol!!!!! cant cry out loud... feels like my heart on my throat where by i cant throw out feeling fucking funny don noe how to explain....

ytd after so much "FUN" i finally ask her this." is that wat u really wan?" she reply "meaning?"
and therefore i reply "break?" and there goes she said "yes"
and so i told her by i wont bother u anymore... weee....

lol i like been repeated the same think over and over again....

my dad told me.. once u can take , once u can let go...
i don noe how to type in chinese but something lik tat la...

lol anyway now is 24/05/09 already so is... lol i don noe how to say u all figure out the change between today and ytd lo...

lol...

think thats all i gonna say... don noe later still can sleep a not...

how i hope this was a bad dream but is fact and is also the fact i have to go for major exam.. bike test and work... cant change the fact although im try to run away but it seems lik my body is doing all the work and trying to push my think and everything to move on....

feeling quite meaningless.. but funny still

i still carry on with everything without running away when i wanted to run...
lol i don noe wat im writing but readers who understands think u know how it feels....

lol.... lik i said! HUAT LA!!!!!! ~~ WONDERFUL LIFE!!! ("\(~,~)/")

anyway... is that the case... aa.... a... a... a... i wondering later could i fall asleep easiler?? a.... a....a....a .... eating pills now for illness.... a...a...a.... than go smoke my last stick... aa...a.....a..... hmm than try to sleep ! =]

WEEEEEE!!!!! jyjy gogogogo i can do it! and you can too!!! jy for exam !!!! CHIONG ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR ~,~

lol =]

happy always smile even though how bad it was but still smile! =] lik me =]!!! lol!!!

today 22/05/2009 9.30

2009-05-22T04:25:00.000-07:00

my gf told me this

" Sorry let's break up . You promised you wouldn't ask why . sorry "

i reply

" why? we promise tat break without a good reason."

she reply

" You often told me . Don carry on if i dowan to . your blog post . sorry hhaii "

i reply

" my blog?. my blog is huatla.bs.com. You wanted this and u finally ask? Okie , Anyway is it u have other in mind? "

she reply

" No jus . th longer it is th more it hurts . Jus to say . After much i've been think about it lo . Yea mayb your right about me lo . Than i thought of breakin but couldn't let go . Than i think very long about wad i want , i really donoe la but th past month i've been so alone with only gwen be my confidant and all girlfriends . Mum also keep tellin me if your not interested don lead you on all this shit . So why not . Its better for you and me . I'm so used to being alone anyway . Sorry ba."

i reply

" is the guy who take bike? Or. If u lik telling me. den say ba. K? I just woke up and saw this was happy about the name but. was blank. Anyway. Think i will be still okie. Hmmmmm"

she reply

" No th guy biker not close to me at all . I haven seen him for 3 months "

i reply

" oh i see. " And why are u so alone?" anyway! i noe u need alot of courage. To type tat i think. Ya. maybe u are right.....

No idea. Why don reply me. My msg. U told me u were busy of study. Gwen with u jia min with you. WE both hurt. Of nvr meet. Im fine. Don say about your friends. Is not good u know. lol. The one msg tats nvr reply. Cos? busy of study. Anyway. Hmmmm jacket. And the rings u keep ba.

Think this the way for me to say thanks. :)"

she reply

"Sorry about tat . 1St my phone lately got problem . And i jus wanna see how long i'd last without replying . Just hope it doesn't hust so bad for you . I donoe i just reject all th comforts from friends , feel so alone just so , confused

Sorry i know you've been an awesome and understanding boyf . I know its my lost but i don want things to becomw worse . Both of us having major exams this yr . I wish you th best. We could stil talk as friends , but its jus the wrong time for relation. Thanks for everything . "

i reply

" Its not your lost. But mine. U lost nothing at all. Cos u don believe in forever stuff. Or marriage stuff.. But for me i lost, Someone precious to me when i don eveb noe how to treasure. Cos of stupid exam. I fear of the end of relationship so i try to be positive all the time hope exam would finish faster. But it seems tat the end is faster. I try not to meet u cos i on wan to be inference to your exam. But it result to this. So 1 time i cant take and meet you. But it seems lik jia and gwen is the best for u and they can help u in exam. So im not angry at all or should i say. No rite to be angry. U study. i don bother u u out with friends i don bother u. but not end up u been alone cos i think i don bother u this period the best. Result to this sorry. Thias is wat i don wan to say out most but i did. Sorry. I hope theres no misunderstanding. My lost ot of forever. I noe this was coming at the begining when we last met. But i ignore cos i don think it woud be so soon. Thanks for letting me noe. Theres nothing as forever. Thanks! All the best for your exam."

she reply

" sorry . thanks for everything "

late afternoon send this to her..

"don worry be happy y make life so miserable? :)"

she reply

" Cuz life was meant ti be miserable "

i reply

" lol. Dot i now at bugis the temple :) lol "

she reply

" why o.o "

i reply

" cos i this week since monday till now keep havin bad things to me the test. the school the teacher den today this lol. Anyway. i just wanna pray u and my family safe and exam pass. Plus health lo. Hmmm anyway i with my dad. My dad also got prob den today free can together pray lo. "

she reply

" oh ok take care "

After all this

i with dickson all the time... been the 5 months can hold hands and 3 months cant meet,

i been feeling fucking down try msg lots and either nvr reply at all or just reply every one word..

dickson told me that u had someone in mind and no interested.. but i don give up till once she scold me.. and i let him see... its says.. " cant u let me have some peace on my studys?"

everytime i msg she say she was busy than i stop msg..

everytime im free on saturday but she had tuition than i i don go bother her...

"Sorry about tat . 1St my phone lately got problem . And i jus wanna see how long i'd last without replying

she told me this.... phone got problem... and this would reply so fast and as normal? y not got problem?

the best part was just "i jus wanna see how long i'd last without replying "

wow so suddenly and at the best period on the 3 months

okie...im fine... i did ask shao wei tat anything happen to u a not he say everythings is normal..

than i was like maybe okie....

the worst part i hate the most but be4 telling u i still cant forget the days i break with u and i nvr break when u tot of break your mum told me this stop hurting u... i was like wth....

fine maybe this time i realli hurt u in i don noe how...

but this " Mum also keep tellin me if your not interested don lead you on all this shit . "

wow i cant believe your mum realli tell u this...

cos when i ever ask shao wei wat happen to u i ask asked your mum...

but onli shao wei reply but your mum didnt even reply...

i cant believe this... nvm

th past month i've been so alone with only gwen be my confidant and all girlfriends .

lik i said i did msg but nothing reply.... or onli one word....
if not study,,,,'

ever first time msg more than 10 words is i told her i go register for bike...

and afterwards.. is either nvr reply or one word....

i don noe... y i keep on writing and saying this... anyway is all over

today 22/05/2009 9.30am
one more week till our 9 month...

she not gonna read this cos i just know ba....

i been change blog link... lol

im not blaming anyone all this i just blame myself y lik this...
myself.... wat the hack i did wrong or is there any misunderstanding??

ytd i got a heavy flu and this week really bad luck for me and now this

lik i said huat la!!!!! wonderful life... i don noe wat im gonna do... to save or to torture....
or just regret...

lol one very funny think is i didnt realise this morning till now i wearing your heart boxers lol....

funny wor...

anyway
the songs ever with me from feb 14 onwards till now....

How did i fall in love with you by back street boys
Sometimes by britney spears
Tonight by FM Static
Forgive me by unknown.
Just one last dance
Just wanna let you know
Love story by Taylor swift
Last kiss by Mariah Carey
All or nothing by O-town
Till the end
Are you the one by Timo Tolkki
Swear it again by Westlife
I don wanna miss a thing by Aerosmith
I will be by Avirl Lavigne
Check yes julet by We the kings
I'll be by Edwin Mccain
Tongue tied by Faberdrive
Fixing a broken heart by Indecent Obsession
Home by Michael Buble
Only reminds me of you by MYMP
Nobody by Wonderful Girls
Fall by Ina
Maybe by Secondhand Serenade
She's Gone by Steel heart
Cant stop the rain by Cascada
Castle in the sky by Dj Satomi
Dont day you love me by M2M
The day you went away by M2M
Yesterday by Leona Lewis
The last Song ever by Secondhand Serenade
I Dont wanna know by Mario Winans Ft. P. Diddy
Fly away by Corrinne May

fuck week

2009-05-21T00:22:00.000-07:00

saturday got to tua

think everytime they drive past sengkang

past by the blks...

feel lik msg her but think not... shes busy lo

than i sad though,...

lol than till cant tahan msg liaqo no reply... lol.. hahah think she didnt recive

than sunday... not good...

monday had test...

i did study lot but test question is those easy derh lo lik given mark...

than tuesday same also wednesday also... today also...

wa..... dieing...

just hope everything are fine...

haiz.....

all the best don give up jyjy!!!

after the meet at vivo;and past few days

2009-05-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

first got chocolate from her..
second got songs..
third she seems to be happy///
fourth being a bi with her friends... i was lik wow lol

now hoping she realli does happy...

somehow i feel lik i was very unfair to her very lot... i've been feel quite bad even with sch... and now i hate school... i need money take bike can go where ever i wan.. but now i cant... wondering when can i take my bike...

anyway sometime if i got bike also not good scare my attitude change... and there goes i fly lol... anyway

as long thats shes happy, im glad...

ever msg her this even when study i cant stop thinking of her...

haiz...

onli i left a msg from her which is my happiest was just a "Nites dear <3"

and i reply "Nites! Muack!"

ever since it was 05/05/2009 12.54am

haha been keeping this...

even now still on my n81 lol//

i began to feel "love" or experiance lol..

funny though good will be damn good bad will be damn bad... not by words but by feel..

sorry i know i becoming more and more not being understands at times.. but i just...

"love" is such a perfect imperfect life lol

finally got the feel of the negative and weakness of "love" can die ar.... lol

or maybe i still don noe wats "love" is lol

try to ignore and focus on study ar..

must chiong!!!!!!! result some out good or bad also bo bian need chiong!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! HUAT LA!!!!!

2009-05-02T22:30:00.001-07:00

Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings

2009-05-02T01:29:00.001-07:00

2009-04-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

today best day ever

2009-04-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

today our special day...

suppose to meet her which i always wan to meet her...

but the best part was i can't find my ring this morning till afternoon till in school... wanted to meet her... but i wear without ring very funny...

haiz... end up i kill myself for not going to meet her...

cos tmr i got school she tmr also gt sch... think this is my funniest day...

totally 3 month include feb wow...

haha think i just avioding something which i hope wont happen...

haiz....

think this would be her .worst day ba...

bo bian school important... finally found my ring... but was too late cant meet already... lol

i tel her i don noe how to celebrate lol...

nvm just hope she can do her best ba...

2009-04-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

Tongue Tied - Faber Drive

2009-04-24T22:44:00.000-07:00

you'll make it

2009-04-24T22:34:00.000-07:00

music like fuck lol

just tyhe lyrics...

lol

plus no one can charge us/

2009-04-16T02:48:00.000-07:00

Love Story - Taylor Swift

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
begging you please don't go...
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story,
baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes...
escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo- I was the scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story,
baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story,
baby, just say yes.

Oh, Oh.

But I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad--
go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.

Oh, Oh,
Oh, Oh, Oh.

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you.

by rite got lots to say,,, this happen..

2009-04-11T22:00:00.000-07:00

12/04/2009

sunday
1.02pm

ytd..

11/04/09
4.03pm

me msg my gf:

"Baby u havin tuitioning?"

no reply from her.

11/04/09
7.35pm

me msg my gf:

"Baby. Busy till lik tat?"

no reply from her again....

11/04/09
11.51pm

me msg my gf:

"U sick? sleep? Busy? homework? me very boring? very irritating? Wat had happen? No feel le? msg me. 1 or 2 word onli lik cant be bother haiz no mood? very lifeless? Don wan me msg? me not romantic? me full of crap?"

12/04/09
1.18am

she replied me:

"I just now lost my fucking phone la think how u wan la i don care le . i toning outside"

12/04/09
1.45am

i replied:

"Think how i wan? U don care le? Got ever think tat u care? How would i noe ur phone lost? Just worry y nvr reply. Think i wan? Don even understands how i feel. How about u msg someone ur dearest tat didnt even reply? Lik ur friends or family how u feel? Fine. Am just asking. How do i noe for so long didnt met plus seldom msg. I don care how angry u r. Since don lik to reply my msg. Den forget it la. Cant meet Nvm cant chatNvm Now cant msg? Wats the meaning of this? U wan a silent break huh? or wat? i don noe wat u thinking u enjoy ur fun i disturbing huh?okie."

12/04/09
1.49am

she replied:

"Sorry if tat's how you feel but i'm like tat May leave if you cant take it . I don care le"

12/04/09
1.55am

i replied:

"Oh.... Got ppl in ur mind just say. Don need keep on asking me to leave wen i didnt do anything. Y keep don wanna reply? Mia? Now say unitl lik i said or done till im wrong and ask me to leave? U been telling u don wanna caer cos in the first place u didnt ba? Been telling i think i think i think. Who wanted a meaningless relationship? Wat i done wrong? Don wan me tell straight don need to push everything to me and ask me to leave. Derh."

12/04/09
1.59am

she repied:

"We could break if you wanted to ."

12/04/09
2.03am

i replied:

"I don wanted in the first place. Unless u wanted. Im just making myself clear tat. Y is this gonna happen between us with a sudden this kind of feeling of yours. Unless u noe feel. Had someone in mind wanted to break. Just say. Onli.

she didnt replied..
so i msg again.

12/04/09
2.32am

i msg her:

"So? If u realli wanted to break. i wont ask who u love. I wont do anything to the guy u had in mind. Just say wat u wanna say. I cant do anything though. Being with me got so negative feel ma? Need mis? or don need reply derh ma? Ask me to leave? Y been asking me to leave when u wanted to? i don lik silent break also. U wanted den just say. If i wanted i will also just say. But problem is. This few days. Or should i say after march? This lots happen? I don noe."

she didnt replied again...

12/04/09
2.40am

i msg her again:

"I don noe wats on ur mind. But anyway seems u enjoy ur ton. Sorry to change ur mood or maybe not. I don noe be careful. Nites."

she didnt replied again...
i cant sleep worrying...

so i msg her again...

12/04/09
3.50am

I msg her:

"Don noe y feel lik msging. when i read we could break if u wanted to i don care liao. Say till lik our relationship didnt even start. How i been treated u the day we start? Nothing??? Break means nothing to u??? Y i been saying u got someone in mind,cos u said this we could break if u wanted to i don care le. R u playing with me still bored den wan throw me away le ar? If u realli playing just say. If u realli wanna break just say i cant do anything. Lik i say if i wanted to break i will already say but problem is i nvr thought of break. Just been wondering how have u been. Worry or wat happen when u didnt reply. During ur schol time did i bother u?Even if got when u say i will stop myself to interrupt ur studys. Ur tuition time did i bother u? Homework u wan it do it peacefully so i nvr msg u le. Break realli means nothing to u? To me is a very big thing. Is very hust. Im lik tat. U sure? If so theres no reason i don noe. We been together foe 7 months and i don noe? It cant be. Or u mean i love the wrong person? And wanna break? timing so zun when i ask about everything onli left out ur phone lost den tell me ur phone lost. I believe it. But now u say we could break? tell u le. wanna break just say derh. Put it short and sharp i wont ask y. So do i. I nvr thought of break or even to bring up. U treat it lik nothing a nd bring break up lik a fun game? Pls put it sharp so wont hurt both partys. I don think u care. so maybe"

12/04/09
3.51am

link the msg:

"Im just the onli one gettin hurt? Lol cant be ba. U already noe wat kind of person am i le. I just want it all or nothing at all. Tats all its so simple. And not mia or silent break to me. No matter how busy am i, haven the end of day i will reply. Or even if got next day. I also will reply. Just to let u noe tat im fine. And wat im doin, this not about entertaining or wat.This is about how u noe each other and feel. Unless you were playing? Y i beensaying tat playiong or someone in mind. Cos i cant find anymore reason to put it. No matter how i would msg or reply. The onli way to tell me tat u say im lik tat. For 7 months le. i don noe? Don wan me don need me just say don need kept quiet blog is a dairy tat put wat ever u feel into it. And wat u think not about scare readers to read and not a advertisement to let ppl read. The fun out of it. Im lik tat. Lik i say if u don feel lik it don ever stay. Its simple and sharp to me u been always tell me jump and hows ur life sux and nothing else. But to others? How have u been good or bad. when u need me tell me how tragic and nothing else. When u good with friends or gans or just kept to urself and not me. Im a bf not a book. March 29. U not free. Feb don have 29 and after march this u tell me orh ya homework busy and the longestmsg u ever write is we could break if u wanted to i don care le or if tats wat u think i don care le. or cant u let me have a peaceof doing my homework. And tats all. When my last word being made u told me im sorry but too late i already ate 19"

12/04/09
3.52am

linked msg:

"sweets but den next day i woke up. Lik wtf. Den u told me u make a choice. Which u don wan so early tell me. Okie. I didnt persude anymore and now this. Break lik means nothing to u. How should i put it? I disappointed or all this well i just being willingly myself? I very blank. Think next thing u tell me stop spaming ur phone. Lol. Don noe la. Wat u up to oe wat u thinkin.put everything to urself unless those u trusted will noe wat happen. And me noe nothing and said i don understand about u. Wow. I nothing to say liao lo. Am i left out? Or i shouldnt be this bad just to care? 2 times old break u wanted to be safe which i thought we can be together forever and now. Break lik nothing happen. Wow. I wanted to. After those 2 i stop le. I nvr thought of break. And now? This. Wow. I think u don even bother to read. Or got fed up. I don noe. Think this is i can say ba. Even though i still love u lots. U don seems to appreciated. So i been unappreciated all along? And u just said i don care. Think u wont even reply. Let it be. Lik wat u say i don care haiz."

after all this no reply......
haiz...

today afternoon 12/04/09 12pm...

still no msg..... decided to write it here as a lost memorise...

2 plus watch a channel 8 show..

so touching...

"nothing cant be solve"
" there's a will, there's a way"

so how when i watch the show don feel lik posting the msg above.... le...

but since i write so much than i end the story ba... haiz.....

Friday afternoon 10/04/09

got 7 miss call got worried call back...

he told me he kana fine of $300 of littering...

wanna borrow money from me.. but to say i just send all my money to sea le....

afternoon ask me go with him to tua..

they say wan me to sit tat chair and let god come to my body...

they ask i wan jump?

i said see first...

so phew i nvr but dickson have to

one fellow jump very big big god... lol the god come liao fucking furious ar...

keep on use his right hand to bang the table... and tok to dickson about god thing...

wow phew luckily they say not invole pls go away.. so i went away hahaha...

till night 3 plus reach home...

next day 11/04/09 12 plus in the afternoon got called from dickson...

when i just awake.. tok a lot about phone...

so i tell him i catch no ball later than go over to his house...

2 plus 3 reach his house he suddenly told me the fine was cancel lol the mans who fine him when to his house and withdraw the fine paper... lol....

than they told me got 3 plan of line ask me to sign...

luckily tat 3 plan let other ppl sign le.. phew...

scary... ar...

1 plan from singtel, 1 plan from starhub, 1 plan from M1

ask me to sign adult plan i take sim card they take phone..

all the payment they pay.. its simple i just need to sign and use onli don need pay a single cents...

lol so good y u don wan!? lol don noe just don wan lo... cos tat fellow got trouble with me in the past and now wan me help.. tat y so good. but i don wan... so she bo bian find other ppl but lucky to her she found... anyway... im happy with my own sim though...

even i get liao also cant use much....

my contacts onli have 7 contacts lol

these 7 contacts lol///

Abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
sebas
Alvin
Braden Ite
Dickson
Jia jun Ite
Stacy Ite

so even if i realli sign up just to help them... i cant use much though... lol....

than today... 12/04/09 12 plus again... got 4 miss call from dickson... lol

tot something happen called back he told me at jurong point got fine of $300 from HSA lol

i told him not again!? lol

comfirm cock where got so zun wan.. lol now just wait for him come back lo... than see how...

now to my house clock is 3.16pm...

later than write i think or maybe don have cos tmr i have school le...

cant late late sleep liao must prepare... sad.....

09/04/2009

2009-04-09T02:50:00.000-07:00

09/04/2009

5.51pm

lol ytd sebas come my house slack till 10 pm than go home...

11plus go dickson house...
play maple lol till morning 5plus than sleep lol than don noe wat time...

he go fetch his gf..

i kana lock at his house alone.... lol

than he back.. with food they eat i maple...

they maple i watch tv...

till just now he send his gf back...

now do nothing

very blank....

one more thing!!!!!!

ytd i msg darlinh something funny.. lol its say...

08/04/2009
7.57pm
"Sometime i wondering everything went so smooth just as i plan ytd. But today i destroy everything. How do u feel when everything goes smoothly as u plan to sleep nvr awake and theres goes i today awake. Wtf lik i had a bad dream. But everything i see is so true how can i be awake again? Y lik? im still very blank wat makes me awake? i don noe. But i just awake lik i now msging u lol. This realli realli feel very funny i don noe do u ever have this feeling be4?"

she reply...

"say i bhb or wad but a choice i make can change your fate ."

so i ask did she already make tat choice? or make long ago!?

She reply

"nothing nothin its too early to tell"

than i replied again

she reply

"Haven . Ytd i made one but no final"

wow... haiz...

now 09/04/2009

6.30

be4 this time lol

i ask don should noe or don noe wat choice she make!?

lol she said "No"

i ask again she msg this

"Donoe . Not now sorry "

someone pls think for me wat choice she make that maybe cant change my fate！？

hmm or maybe none lol... having think of it lol!?

or maybe got but too hurtful!? lol

i don noe but i don mind waiting...

anyway now still very blank my first time this blank lol...

08/04/2009

2009-04-08T03:41:00.000-07:00

weee im still very blank...

tell my dad i eat 19 sweets..

and ask y.. nothing happen~?

my dad tell me not to play ever again...

my dad say since not u feel like nothing happen maybe 3 or 5 day something will happen tell me not too go far far...

maybe will blackout or faint lol...

anyway i don believe though,....

but sometimes i believe one thing...

some ppl can take drugs some ppl cant.. lol...

like me 19 strong sweets should just sleep peacefully already lol...

unlike 10 normal sweets when my friend take liao kana hospital... lol kana poison waste money also lol...

haiz.... don noe wat happen ever since i awake i feel very high, hyper lik tat lol

lik i take energy sweets lol....

but to think back..... and been ask my dad y nothing happen my dad been black don wanna tell me onli tell me back home early sleep don go far far...

oh crap....

i tell my dad when i take the sweets was empty stomach plus i bite the sweets...

should be fast asleep le....

how come become like this!?????

realli very blank...

think no one ever believe lol...

haiz... don noe wat to tell my baby i so sterm or blur go tell her i take pills... wat the helll stupid rite!?

should just tell her sweets.. would be nicer///

haiz... think if i were her i comfirm hate him....
don noe wat to do also...
wan to sleep spam me msg for wat go sleep la.. wtf
now at sebas house blogging...
everytime msg spam me... than awake tell me u alive??? lol
think later go out slack...
go sleep la don need report anyway.... i still got lots of stress and business
tell him i eat this 19 wonderful sweets he was like u sot ar.. lol anyway eat for wat1?

i don noe how to ans but just playing

sometime playing is so wonderful

i see and learn than expierance lol

not too late to learn and know.. or i realli a ku ku or nerd nerd or baby ar,.... lol

07/04/2009

2009-04-08T00:08:00.000-07:00

07/04/2009

12 pm sharp my third brother coming over fetch me and my parent go pray my second brother...

than 2plus 3 go striaght to old cck office to q- up fon my grandmother grave to take out and burn to hdb flat...

reach home around 6 plus bath than take bus went over to dickson house...

msg baby... no reply...

brain keep on telling me is silent break..

than go next room fuck myself again...

went home early cos very tired be4 my last msg eat 19 sweets// loll

hope will sleep early....

next day suddenly awake till now... it cant be...

bluff my dad tell him i eat 9 sweets, y should can be awake my dad ask me y eat so much

i kept quiet end up tell him i play for the fun out of it...

its like a dream tat i wake up at 7 plus tell my baby tat i was awake im still alive.. lol

very happy.. somehow... but when i check my phone when i wake up at 12 i see my msg

lol is all true... wtf... cb... y god cant let me sleep peacefully...

fuck... i go check my sweets raper

still there and is all empty oh fuck....

than y???? y cant let me sleep!?

is my sweets not strong enough!? cant be i steal my dad's///

my friend onli eat 10 sweets went inside hospital now still alive...

so i comfirm myself this 19 sweets.. which are strong in order to sleep peacefully without going hospital...'

i plan everything went so smoothly fuck and now i wake up lik nothing happens!?

fuck!? who the hack save me!?

or is it me....

fuck alll i too worried about baby thats y i wake!?

cant believe it///

wake up like nothing happen... not even a poison or sick...

wat the hell cb!!!!!

fuck after all i send all my last words.. this happen cb////

no one would ever believe me anymore...

i should have take a video of my own./././././

oh fuck don noe how to msg baby le.......

i should just shut my mouth it would be better///

2009-04-06T20:55:00.000-07:00

06/04/2009

haha go sebas house watch fast and furious 4

than he play maple... than go meet derek

wow happy seeing A-me sia....

sebas also shock.. we chat alot than met dickson...

but somehow i found than she more close with dickson and not derek...

saded A-me forget me liao... but nvm la can chat and play better than nothing...

so end up went to derek house... dickson not coming

at his house watch tv and A-me... with derek lol
than went back home...

sebas wanted slack.. lol .... than slack than come my house slack till 2 plus den he went home...

than i sleep.....

nothing much...

i found something interested....

first fuck fucking pain

second and alot not pain anymore become shiok lol

than stop for a while... like very long and fuck become fucking pain lol....

than fuck again like wow shiok liao... but saded my not big enough

haiz....

so after this i found that relationship hurt is the same also...

so far think i still haven kana fuck by girls... don noe anything..

but those girls kana fuck who play like it...

but stop for very long they don wan it anymore...

Epik High one love one life lyric

2009-04-06T02:59:00.001-07:00

One - Epik High

Time is tickin', T-time is tickin' tickin
Time is tickin', T-time is tickin' away!

Nobody knows about the tears that start pouring down your cheeks, pouring without reason,
or about the broken glass raging a storm in your heart..

Because your wound turned into a sickness, your doors into walls,
And your image in the mirror has become the enemy, you're hurt, right?

Everybody turned a blind eye and left you, left you to suffocate,
Making you choose your end (they're so bad aren't they?). You've lost your purpose to live.

With no road back you'd just wander forever
And your breath would give up before your hope.

Wounds (when you cry), scars (though you try)
and tears (say goodbye) pouring out (the time is ticking).

Having wandered through death (I'll save you)

You are the one!

CHORUS
*When I'm walking through darkness-
(When you're captured in the darkness so is my breath.)
You are my savior!
You, who gave me your hand-
(When the world's doors close on you I'll offer you my hand.)*
You are the one! My savior.

Time is tickin', T-

Your hands that set the world on fire, were the blindfolds over their eyes
That star shining in your eye is "suffering" and it is your city.

Are you still sleeping on your dreams? Counting your remaining breaths? Measuring the depth of your tears?
Is your hope a sinking paper boat? You're sad, right?

Do you wake up drenched in sweat? Is your conscience groveling on the ground twitching?
Do you think this is the end? It's ok. Cuz I understand.

I'm a scar on your broken body, I'll even wipe away the tears hidden in your shattered soul.
I'll clasp your hand in mine and believe in you.

Wounds (when you cry), scars (though you try)
and tears (say goodbye) pouring out (the time is ticking).
Having wandered through death (I'll save you)
You are the one!

*Chorus*
You are the one! My savior.

Are you hurt? Are you scarred? Are you stumbling in the dark?
Are you hurt? (Faith) Are you scarred? (Destiny) Are you stumbling in the dark? (Love)

You're still beautiful to me!
You are the one!

*Chorus*

Time is tickin', T-time is tickin' tickin'
Time is tickin', T-time is tickin' away!
My savior!
One!

06/04/09

2009-04-06T01:04:00.000-07:00

weee today 1 plus awake///

ytd reach home at 4 plus... cos i go with dickson and stacy to take dog...

feel like having tat dog sia... but my dad comfirm kill me ar...

cos is a haix-ki... lol\

nvm i miss her a lot its A-me...

don noe when the first look to her she kiss me on my lips... omg.... so shocking...

dickson also shock...

she love cold place though cos she always very hot derh...

poor girl sia....

how i hope shes with me but cant le...

i cant also... i don even noe my baby she her liao will how sia...

A-me!!!!!

haiz...

now just blog it at 4.10pm...

waitting the fellow wake up la...

anyway ytd msg my baby she got reply for a while than never reply le...

than at last i msg her

"life is about choies"

than she reply this

"Cant i do my fucking homeworks in peace?!"

lol i was lik wow... hahaha.

than i go celebrate myself dickson and his gf having happy over also..

my wallet got $18

than go shop buy two big can of drinks and a pack of half time 5 chill..

than i too thirsty than drag the whole can than went back dickson house chain smoke

lol shiok sia... dickson also got smokie haha his gf also haha..

lol than i got another can give dickson... cos i full liao become guan gong lol...

haha than later dickson bring his gf home than back home..

lol than he tried create private server maple///

than me go see through my baby the post on 26/08 till 29/08

feel back the feeling hahaha...

like i was back!? lol

than later meet stacy with dickson than that how .. wat i write on top lor... lol

how i hope A-me nvr forget me...

hahaha see till next time!

RAIN heavily now....

2009-04-04T20:59:00.000-07:00

05/04/2009
sunday

ytd i felt my worst awake feel sian immediately lol than whole day sian..

lol today.. is sunday like wow omg 7 day more sch reopen... fuck sia... so fast...

just realise tat this 3 week holiday is my worst ba i think///

been slacking alone tried lot of way to slack with and u know wat!?

its friends.. even though.. being.... is hurt... but try happy with them

haha slack with friends... as though cant meet them in scho? no diff

i found something sometime ppl like ME say stress they do realli stress but wat happen the believer believe im stress end up i was having lot of fun in everyday living their they fully..
wow...

anyway...

at first i was tot of sch.. but end up maybe not...

cant realli believe everyone.. the best part is don ever realli believe those who are very close to u..

sometime u tot of telling the person tat close to u..

but they felt diff or anger...

life is all up to alone.. i know everyone noes but everyone can make life not alone.

lol i don noe wat im saying but i tried my best..

just by thinking the past....wat makes me regret

i try not to repeat but i repeated///

omg.... i don feel any responsibleabilty anymore.. is worthless..

wat for when u try so hard just to let ppl see tat u are exist when they don even know..

they don even care...

y im always the odd wan!?

lol at there goes everyone the odd wan... like a virus... there goes spread...

when those who realli had virus got ignore and those fakers who fake tat they got virus got cared...

those ppl i found i always kick away...

and now i cant kick...

total rubbish...

y i cant kick away..?

is it must be the pain end near my life than kick!?

wow i felt funny... the more i write the rain gets heavier and heavier....

wtf....

now the rain is super heavier....

anyway,, sometime i feel i cant wait.. lol don noe y...

cos when everytime i wait till i cant wait enough and i spread germs; than finally they come..

and always regret after i spread germs.. keep asking myself y cant i wait a bit longer!?

forget it this happen not once or twice but many many time...

y im always the wrong guy?

cos i easily get eaten!?

don care of myself or don protect myself than i get fault??

do anyone knows that!? they said yes...

oh shit...

everyone lik to feel special no one will...

so i be even,... and everyone odd... and so wats the diff? i odd again!?

wth....\

when ever ppl say they are serious, everything said to be serious but no action i had that...

how i hope my surroundings are not those kind but yeah.. is worst than i thought is those nearest to me... are those kind...

everyones knows that action speak louder than words..

everyone knows that words is hard to believe and mostly are lies..

but they didnt notice that they are already believe in words and not actions..

everyone likes to be the saddest or the hero...

they tot they are, but they are fakers...

all goes tok and tok and tok... everyone believe and when the ONE goes action. everyone cant seee..

so wats the point of saying action speak louder than words?

do u know wat!? last time i don hate anyone maybe cos im never been hurt or see.. like a baby..

but now i know wat i hate the FAKERS!!!!!!

and the best part is the fakers wont ever admit.. like the stealer don say himself steel...

thats FAKERS!!!!!!

readers if u do know wat it means, and agree with it.. u are not a fakers...

but if u doN.. than u are.. cos my english not good.. onli write down the feels...

so stop saying my english not good when u are a FAKERS!!!!!

2009-04-03T22:45:00.000-07:00

03/04/2009

anyway... afternoon 4.30

meet sebas and his new gf... go timah play pool till 8 plus.. his gf went home.. than go meet dickson and at gf house.. than together go to dickson house play a few rounds of mahjong...

than tua business.. till 12 plus.. than play back mahjong till 2 plus...

lucky sebas sister bf got car.. reach homw bath sleep

04/04/2009 just 12 awake post the shit just know and now post this shit...

life.... funnyy...

like i say... don feel lik than leave

2009-04-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

think think about yourself...

i nvr ever regret wat im saying..

i think more than times i write..

plus even something change my mind.. it onli change for an instandly and also not forever..

stop believeing already than let it stop..

your relationship nvr end up till married..

who don wan a relationship ended with married!?

i don noe... since u think u nvr change and u wanna end than be it

i wont stop u... i know this is wat u wan..

being hate that a person don noe u at all..

i onli regret one thing i ever bought.. is that fucking ring... total meaningless i think..

like i say i don like celebrate Feb 14

wow u were having fun your way every life style u had even though u just say u stress....

how can it be!?

and u just say who would bother!?

or who would understand..

or did u know my stress!?

ooooh crap... since u been so much relationship..

ever feel being with me is a shit!? if so don hesite to end,,,'

ever feel being without me is a shit!? i don think so...

u just post waiting for the one who owe u go over...

or u just wait....

or do i change!?

if so not happy than not happy lor...

stop believeing than stop believe lor... i wont change....

stop saying u are hurt when u nvr even kana till....

the first time.. the one whom to stand up on his own...

the one who say.. say is more easier than action i believe,,,...

who don wan to start a new?

when tot is new when is struck...

feel like forcing someone... to happy with the cover and not the souls... i don feel any feeling or soul... if we are this different and u know it y bother!?

money no stress? i never say that but using money to take over soul and feeling thats wat i mean...

isnt it use money to play feeling!?

y u waiting for me to ask for end is it!? than

"oh wow gh.... j... others seee//// wat kind is this i knew it wont last.."
"y bother believeing or bothers!?"

go ask something..

relationship will always last.. like friends...
boy girl relationship will last when they commitment.
boy girl relationship will last forever when they got plan of marriage.

and u!?
wan a

boy girl relationship tat will last forever with no marriage and when it break, u say there nothing will last... isnt that wonderful!?

don like than live...

and ur favourite sentence is did i say that!?

hey kid problem is... not everything met to be said of explain...

when theres feel means got feel

no need to say derh...

say for wat!?

evidence to friends!? to court!?

hello this not about market price or wat// relationship = feelings!?

i wonder is my english feel or i tok crap...

those who think i tok crap i mean for the readers...

cos u didnt expiercience...

lol....
where to put the fuck.....

02/04/2009

2009-04-01T23:09:00.000-07:00

wow boring life agin...

ytd nite watch movie online...

on the fast and furious and 2 fast 2 furious till 3 plus... lol

don noe wat time chat with darlin till half way think she fall asleep...

today 9 plus 10 wake up go out with my dad till 1plus 2 for... go pray with my dad my grand ma..

wow just finish had lunch... now is 2.30pm...

nothing must very tired.. maybe late sleep ba.... haiz... that alll

days when through

2009-04-01T02:53:00.000-07:00

28/03/2009

it was a saturday...
12pm sharp...

me dickson his gf and a birthday boy..

we went to jurong east science centre the omi i don noe wat la..

lol we when there and had our lunch in sakura...

had alsot of thing to eat.. but we onli eat seafood lol...

onli the birthday boy had to eat meats cos he cant eat seafood...

we went eat and eat and eat till we have dessert...

after for a while dickson and his gf got qurrel for a while and hopefully it end..

so we when to IMM at jurong east...

we went walking and more walking lol..

leg got a bit tired but its okie...

and than we went across a fish shop...

where the fishes with make your leg went very pretty...
but the funny part was the itchy part.. lol...

but be4 we start paying the birthday boy said " Lets go to the strong 1" which is a bigger fish...
there have 2 parts one is the small fish and the big wan....

they call it nibbling...

so when we went in for the strong wan... and goes hahahahahahahaha
lol

it is fucking itchy lol...

the birthday boy change his mind say wanna go to the soft derh but we say don la of cos..

its ex

$10 for just 10 mins...
wtf

nvm after that the birthday boy when home..
we went home soon..

a few min later when back to dickson house cos i just rmb my gf ask me ask something for her..

wow at first i wasnt dare to ask but finally ask...

was given something to me.. and ask me not to think so much everything is fine... lol

anyway later than dickson's dad wan me go to a temple to pray. he said is better if she can go..
my dad came at we at dickson house downstair the coffee shop.. my dad had the first time chat with his dad.. and everything when smoothly.

so i sms my gf asking whether she can come over tmr i and my dad and dickson's dad go lor..
gf say tmr need go with her mum go temple also!? lol i was shock! so zun!?

lol actually she go there for grand pa.. haix..

she don feel lik going...

she had lots of stress..

she told me to ask and i ask

like she told me for help lol

but she cant make... it okie...

but somehow i felt i lik a fool for asking...

like everything is .... lol i don noe..

but better than nothing la

haha

29/03/2009
sunday

early morning went to temple with dick's dad and my dad...

afternoon reach dickson house.. darlin wan tired after praying...

the whole afternoon slack with dickson till night he meet his gf slack for awhile 9 plus reach dickson house slack till 10.45 just to watch the ghost show than finish....

30/ 03/2009
monday
whole day sleeping

31/03/2009
tuesdays...

suppose to go with dickson and his gf to pasir ris.. but they last min change their mind end up went to sentosa

for a swim...

i wanna call more ppl to go with not im very odd they is okie...

and up go...

we went to siloso beach..

they went for a swim and i just eat breakfast at there.. lol

then soon after i went in swim lor.. lol than i discover lots of fishes lol..

i told them than we at there lik wanting to catch..

swim till 3 plus..

went bath than went to harborfront.. than VIVo

than 4-5 plus take bus when to dickson house... his gf take cab home soon after...

than we was very tired... than i felt lik meeting my friend which dickson also noe/// we went over... reach about 8plus.. at woodland... lol 7424433

tok much braden ask us wanted a dog!? a haizki lol///

me first tot of stacy than ask stacy come over...

we end up waiting for stacy and joshsua

so we play mahjong than see his wedding photo lol is lik realli lol...

stacy and joshsua reach our 2 plus..

we go fetch them back braden house.. we watch stacy brought some CD

dickson fall asleep we still watch till morning

they had their breakfast.. i resting and than they finish we all reach home...

oh yeah i finally smoke today also.. shiok sia.. and super dizzy!!! wow 1/4/2009

i was slept at 10plus in the morning than awake at 6.30pm... lol

wonderful i felt writing a long long msg to her.. but i think better don she stress already...

lol.....

hmmm life suc.... just y cant u give me a straight ans!!!??

just y cant u be realli think!?

if im bad than throw me away y bother keeping!? spare tire!?

i felt nothing more but all is just my willing... wonderful!

all i did was to. end up i was wrong for all i did.. i be blame for all i did.
wow... go la go la. stop saying im thinking that way... when u lead me to there...

stop saying is i anyhow think
stop saying that i think too much and don understands u

when u were the one who lead me to think all this...

how u lead me!?

no mood all the way with me no link...

happyness with all u can with ur wonderful new friends...

im nothing more but a dairy of ur... a sparetire..

when u need me treat me lik ur very very GGGOOOOOD FRieND

stop saying that u treat me like one when u never and push everything to me tat i think too much...

i realise that i didnt think too much....

i treat u like one and in return somehow i been all e way treated lik a good spare tire friend... isnt that wonderful who would thought that!?

who would wanted that just kill me u feel like throwing than throw don hesitate...

u and ur gang is enough already... so wat i cant be there.. stop think that u understand and u know nothing at alll.......

but u onli understands urself for ur beneife... wonderfulll

every after the feb month over.. we don meet... after the fucking ring was bought nothing happen yeahh...

fine i don understands... ya... i don understands alot about u and lot of shits i understands...

im a total fool a total jerk i ever been.... cheating by u abit by abit...

go have ur wonderful darling your most faithful of....

i had enough u been hurt in the past y drag me in now everything to me..... that is so fucking hurt just by suddenly cold war for the fuck don bother to reply don bother than throw la....

y!? chat seldom! no mood! eat much!

no mood; go vivo walk walk!?

no mood for everything; go play!?

stop ur fake face im been see or hearing...

i last time been tot u got bf u know y!? u know y!? i think tat!? NO u don,

and let me tell u y....

most the most we like hug like friends hold hand like friends... nothing much...

outside i sometime wanna lc with u but u don wan... the most i can is kiss...

y? y like tat scare ur darling see ar!? see already u in trouble!?

u r rich so wat!? don mean rich can play the fucking feeling of us...

u been played feeling so wat!? revenge on me!?

wow.....
wonderful...

great...

i don wan a slient break...

u wan break just break onli y bother!????

scare no spare tire!?

don worry u have lots....

i don need ur cakes or food.. or something u just use money for the fun!

i had enough of pain from u...

u always don care wat i do cos i told u my everything... now also same i been telling...

y bother to say!?

i don noe...

i've talk too much...

u promise ur mummy... not to share... fine..

i'll just be myself.. and no special anymore...

2009-03-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

lol lol 0.0!!!

hahahahahaha im crazy liao!!! lol hahahahahahah

i monday quit cig till today tuesday liao.. time is lik very hard to past and kill time..

quit 2 whole days nvr smoke with no side effect...

whole day im not struggle with the cig side effect lol but just feel funny lik nvr play the cig lol...

i successfully quited for these they and wanted to give my gf a surpprise but my daddy give me supprise...

i think cos i whole day tell him i wan cig till he buy for me lol...

and he realli bought it... lol... i shock and i blank... all i always wanted to smoke came to me..

i don noe wat to do...

k hmmm i think i try msg her see how..

if she care i got quit than i smoke lol ; if she don care i got quit or not than i will quit lol...

just msg her this:

"i noe u no mood but just askin u care me quit smoking or don care me quit smoking?
just this 1 reply will do. thanks. "

she reply :

"doesn't make a diff"

i reply:

"got big different hmm care or don care? either 1 pls."

she reply:

"life is about choices , why should i care if i do it too"

i reply:

"LOL i noe. Haha . U learn alot! :) anyway i got this problem hmmm. Either 1 of this ans got its reason. Hmmm. Ya pls reply"

she reply:

"Don care"

0.0!!!

so zun!!!! wth!!! forget it think i onli can see the cig box and ciggarette....

lol i don noe y u say don care but.. i decide... i quit...lol time 10.34 tuseday 24/03/2009 lol now posting for her to see lol

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2009-03-21T02:13:00.000-07:00

theres no bitch in this world who hates their family in every whole even animals and ailens

onli bastard around... don stress urself up is not worth it when u in nothing wrong..

theres onli bad boys lik me.. concern on exam at forget everyone around him even his teachers, friends and most importantly his parents....

there no need to blame urself to be a ultimate bitch... when u are caring to everyone else just that something came to u so sudden tat u can take it...

maybe either i act lik i know in fact i just know nothing when nothing being told...

wat do say i nvr ask... or should i say exam sucks..

the lady stressness is coming lik she gonna die..

FIRST:
infact she can do it without die-ing i believe she can overcome anything onli that she had no faith or something to believe herself that she can///

SECOND:
or should i say i think too much she just has a wonderful life tooo comfortable simple this come she cant take!? lol

either one i not sure i just thinking... must be the FIRST and not the SECOND,

im just very very bad i don noe how to msg her... when things came to her...
now maybe she just think im not caring her lik last time or im change...
anyway u also won think this much either u got something more important also...

im just sad tat im not been used... or should i say when she need me i was not there!? or should i say i didnt know when she need me!? no one told or don bother to say till i ask after im being a bad person!?

funny... lol im just being a needed person when is needed and not needed person when i is no need... lol

i don noe wat im writing... or im just a needed person when theres no need me and happens that when i tot of no need me and i become needed lol!?

i don expect any readers to understands also. lol

think wat u think is rite im not like last time gonna change it... would be best...

infact just say i don understands anything and bomb everything stressness to everyone.. don like me can just leave me don stick around u are hurting everyone else.... lol

wow im being selfish somehow by writing... lol y am i lik tat!?!???!?!?!?!?

or should i say i don noe how to write it in a nicer way!?!?!??!

anyway all bad guys include me and bad,,, im not a sweet talker..
not good at comfortabe words to ppl.. just straight and thats hurt more when ppl expected me to be somebody im not...

lol

a person is very nice when ends up talkative and been ignore... which ppl thinks is rubbish and must be a joke...

a person where ppl thinks he not nice when tat person being so quite all of the sudden becomes a bad person which is cold blooded...

so i think being quite is the best thing to let ppl know tat im serious...

hard to convince ppl tat im serious at all time even joking got hints...

lik i said just now nice person being talkative at time which ppl thinks is a joke...

haiz...

a person with this kind of personal which the person thinks im don noe.. think i should write it down here so everyone will know if u think no one and even me don noe about u.. i decide to let everyone know when readers read my profile..

it can be fake it can be fact.. don believe it...

(A) person:

Do not like to reveal their true feelings except to the few people they feel they can be trusted.
When they are negative, they can nit-picking to exasperation.
They often misunderstood because of their love of controversy and their pompous know-it-all attiude
Fight for more commitment than others

LOL guess who im writing to!?

maybe u think im shooting u... but in fact im didnt which is cos i got reason/

lol haha saded soon meet HIM to go tua..

my holiday just started and this happen... i realli don noe wat to write or wat good words should i write to sms u... no i didnt...

be wat i am to u and wat u think... im not gonna change anything to wat u think! =]

haha maybe im just adding or maybe im not.. lol i surppose-ing write all this not to add but to tell u... but... is u think im adding... than im seriously n0 brain at all

all the best to all u did! =] even studys....

im gone and im back

2009-03-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

lasty i delete my blog cos i tot she not using anymore and thats y i delete..

now feel quite funny after all wrote is all gone..

very long and a very busy that even blogging and msging....

firstly the first few week i cant msg at all my balance is quite low
if u think i don msg u its okie.. cos i nvr say also..

later i top up my card no time to msg is just tat im busy at study maybe u think i don even bother to write u... study till knock out KO wake up school back home very tired need sleep my life was lik tat...

its okie.. thanks for the blame im happy...

i been cherish every moment when we meet but i think u r not realising it..

like wat u say past is past i don wanna drag past also very boring =x

anyway may think wat u wan i isnt gonna change and of ur thoughs. that u anyway wat i love

"feel like meeting u than go find u" okie i rmb that. =]

u 2 rmb if u wan rmb about Esther=]

u know y i wan to delete the old blog!?

not i don wan u know anything or wat i don wan the past blog stuck within us... time is passing age is growing.. im have to be realistic in times.

once i msg u something like the chain msg u got angry.

i already forget the past maybe is about this few days wat i ask.

wat can i say!? u told me about ur ex.

u think about ur ex.

i didnt know how can i comfort u and i reaalli feel lik hacking that fellow.

but i don noe. where to start and how can i start...

ur ex told u tat u and him haven finish relationship.. how can i get invole!?

ur ex is your bf since if i say no such think cos i believe u, somehow i become a guy who steals ppl's gf.. got though of that!? no... think about urself.. maybe im a bit too straight here.

u been complaining how stress u are u...

i understand..

but

firstly i send this

"sleep le ma?"

no reply..

" therefor i send a chain msg... (i didnt write hear cos i forgot le thats ytd anyway...) with a msg tat i delete the chain part"

so i go sleep straight after i send.

morning awake saw msg that reply:

" I now very fuck up . Don talk to me . I no time think about all this fuck . I going tiaolou le so don di siao"

and u gonna say me i don msg u...
u told me not to talk to u when i nvr di siao...

di siao whens a fun time but im seriously all time being with u. if u think im everytime di siao u okie... thanks for telling me... =]

i just msg u think u already recive i not good at toking also...

just feel lik writing when ever thing come to my mind so i think wat i write here all very messy...

lol did expect all readers to understands anyway...